Holy Cow! It has been a while since I have written a blog, sorry about that. At the beginning of November my team left Guatemala and we moved to South Africa! We got new teams and spent the month of November in South Africa. While we were there we worked with a few different ministries. One ministry that we had the chance to work with is Iris Ministries. They have a lot of “campuses” set up all over southern Africa. We had the chance to work with the one in an area called Backdoor right outside of White River. Our ministry was to go door to door evangelizing and praying for people, which is soooo outside of my comfort zone. So we were split up into little groups and given a leader from the church to go with us and we were sent out into the community.
We prayed for and witnessed several healings that day, and one woman even made the decision to give her life to Christ. But instead of celebrating what God had done, I found myself doubting everything we had witnessed. That man just thought his knees were healed, it was all placebo. That woman won’t continue to be a Christian, she was pressured into it. I sat waiting and expecting people to fail and revert to their old ways, the more I thought about it the more I found I was doubtful of people around me. Doubtful that any growth they are experiencing will last, expecting it to quickly fade away.
All of this doubt shows that I don’t trust God to be God. This doubt comes from a place that I believe that I am the only one that can save people and in reality that is so backwards. God is the only one with the power to change hearts, and as our Father he is a creator, provider and sustainer. He will sustain his creation and I just have to continue to say yes, and trust him to do the rest. It’s quite a humbling feeling to realize that any progress we make is not our own work, any change in our hearts is not a results of our efforts. It is the result of Christ working in us. We only have to make room for Him to work and He will, but if we continue to hold back parts of ourselves and try to fix things on our own that is when we begin to spin in circles.
At the end of November our whole squad packed up and moved to Lesotho (a little landlocked country inside of South Africa). For the next two months my team will be working with an orphanage called Seed of Love (formerly Lesotho Save the Children). There are 29 cute nuggets here and we will be doing Bible studies with them, hanging out with them and helping to give rest to the house mothers. I am so stinking excited to see what God is going to do these next two months.
