If you know me, you know I eat sleep and breathe music. If you see me, I usually have my earbuds in. Music is how I have always connected with the father deeply. It’s how we communicate with each other.
Well, about two weeks ago, I lost my earbuds. I didn’t think much of it because I mean they would probably turn up somewhere soon. After about a week of looking, I got upset when I couldn’t find them. I had no way to listening to music on the many quantum rides and during my time with the lord. What was I gonna do?!
When I expressed that I was upset about losing my sweet, precious earbuds, one of my teammates said, “maybe the lord wants you to go on a music fast?” I thought why would he want me to do that? Pretty much all fo the music I listen to is about the Lord, or I can feel Him in it in some way? So why would He want me to stop listening? I thought about that conversation all day and then finally it hit me. I came to the realization that all my spiritual life, I had used music as the foundation of my relationship with the Father. However music made me feel was where I thought I was spiritually. But that’s so wrong. I realized that outside of music I didn’t really have a deep relationship with the Lord. And it broke my heart.
I’m learning that all Christians start out like babies. First, they start off on milk, and milk does them well for a while. But eventually they have to start moving on to solid foods. Foods that will sustain you and fill you up longer. Music was my milk for a really really long time. And it was so good to me! But I’m learning that the Father is so much bigger than music. He is inviting me into a deep deep relationship with Him. He’s inviting me into a new adventure in finding who He is to me and who I am to Him. And I am so excited!
Does that mean I am going to stop singing and stop listening to music all together? Hells no! I actually believe music is something the Lord is calling me into! He gave me a voice and a passion for music and I’m going to use that only for His glory! But in that, I think the Father is inviting, right now, into a new frontier of the ways that He wants to speak to me. And there are SO MANY! Worship is so much more than a song! So for now, I’ve stopped listening to music, until me and the Lord get to know each other better! And well see what happens from there!
Thank you for reading! Love you all!
Anna
