Hi welcome to a little journal entry/ blog I wrote while being homesick over the holidays. Featuring a letter from my sweet cousin Cameron.
19:56 Dunamis 12/24/19
hey home.
Hello to the big front doors that welcome you in. Hello to the island in the kitchen that is usually filled with my friends. hello to the tv room where countless sleepovers happen. hello pantry filled with all my favorite american snacks. hello to my room. hi to my polaroid wall that holds all favorite memories from freshman year till launch. hi bed. hi big comfy pink blanket that i can wrap myself up into. hi spirit, the dog that never fails to leave my side. hey bathroom, where i never have to worry if the shower is going to be warm. hello closet, i miss all your options. hi family room. where ethan is laying on the couch trying to watch tv and ryan is screaming and jumping in front of it just to see what will happen. hi outside
porch where mom and dad sit during the summer days hanging out. i miss you home. i miss warm hugs from my mom. i miss my dad joking around. i miss ryan’s scream singing in the shower. i miss ethan showing off and wrestling the dogs. i miss ace and spirit sprinting to the door barking to greet me. i miss jake hobbling up behind them because he was old and couldn’t keep up. i miss the smell of mom’s cooking as i walk in the door. i miss the sound of my dad’s keys hitting the counter and hearing him on a business call because that means he’s home. i miss ryan sprinting into my room on Christmas morning at 4 am. i miss ethan taking up the whole family room couch because he sprawls out so wide.
hey home.
“ Hey Anna,
So you’re homesick. That’s okay. Cry about it. Yell at God. It’s been a hard day. He sees that. He understands. Growth is never comfortable. Let yourself mourn over the people and places and luxuries you miss. Be gentle with yourself. But look around. All the things you miss are still where you left them. All the people are still there, too. Look at where you are at right now. Look at the beauty and at the need. You are in a unique, God ordained position to pour out and be poured into. Lean on who God has surrounded you with. Pray goodness over each other. Block the darkness with the Holy Spirit’s light. Don’t let yourself live there. Get alone with God, even if it sounds terrible right now. Breathe. Put on worship and just breathe. Be near Him and let Him fill you up with peace that surpasses any understanding. Just Be. Care. Don’t Carry.
xoxo,
Cam “
Home is definitely a concept during the race that is so hard to tackle. You want to go home. You want to see everybody. You want to be hugged by your mom and annoyed by your little brothers. You want your dad to give you his classic life advice. But at the same time there is absolutely no other place you would rather be. You, no matter how badly you wish to be home, see how beautiful and amazing this life you get to live is and how thankful you are to live in it. That where you are at is fully from God.
