WOW !! These past weeks have been a whirlwind… I’ve barely sat to process what’s been going on. In the past 2 weeks, it’s felt way longer, I’ve been a jungle gym for little kids, a spelling teacher, a skater (lol only kinda kidding), on kitchen crew for a camp, and now I’m sanding and varnishing floors. I’ve filled a lot of shoes. I’m not even a month in. WOW.
Through these shoes I’ve filled so far I have learned a lot. One of the biggest things is God doesn’t call the qualified, he qualifies the called. I am not qualified. I am not sturdy enough to sustain being a jungle gym. i don’t have the capacity and smarts to be a great spelling teacher… the words they are learning are HARD… i don’t have enough practice to be a good skater (still only kinda a joke), i don’t have the energy to be on camp kitchen crew for longer than five days and i don’t have enough experience to be sanding and varnishing floors for a school. But, here I am, doing it. Day by day, step by step. Every second the Lord is taking my hand and leading me deeper. While I am not always sure and I am doubting or I am not in the action all the time, which is hard for me, I am trusting Him. I am getting to lean in further to my Heavenly Father, and with every breathe I take he calls me deeper into his love, and farther into his presence. Being able to lean further and further into my relationship with Him. Every small action he calls me into teaches me something. Washing the dishes calls for discipline. In team time I’m learning different ways to lean into the Lord. At Beats and Books, I am learning to utilize the fruits of the spirit such as gentleness and patience, especially when correcting spelling test. During kitchen crew I learned even when the job you are doing is not necessarily seen, God is still using me to do BIG things and make BIG changes in my life.
These past 2 weeks have been hard and tiring, but they have also been so sweet and fruitful. I am getting to learn so much and am getting poured into so well. He is opening up so many doors in my life through each little task I am doing. There is so much kindness and goodness in J-Bay that I want to see myself walk by. People are always saying hello and laughing. They live a slow paced lifestyle. One that is easy going and super into their community. I am so thankful for this opportunity and I wont turn back. I am changing and I love it. Right now in this moment. It is well.
