Five months ago I could have given you an outline of how my life would go. I could tell you what job I wanted to have at what age, and how much I would have in savings by when. I could have told you what age I wanted to be married and what age I wanted to have kids.
Today, April 16, 2015 I have no idea what my future holds. My desires have completely changed from five months ago. And, as terrifying as that is, I’m beginning to be ok with it. I don’t know what I want, but I know God has to be the center of it. Now, my desires are beginning to change to reflect His; to love His people, to live humbly, and to walk justly (Micah 6:8). I don’t know what this means in terms of where I’ll be living or what job I’ll have, but I do know that my God is bold, brave, and strong. I have faith.
I’m not going to act like my faith is steadfast every day. Some days it wavers. A lot. These are the days I have to continuously remind myself that I serve a God bigger than I could ever imagine. He’s bigger than my small desires. He’s bigger than my worries and my fears. He’s bigger than me. He’s bigger than my calendar and my bank account.
My God is Bigger.
