As Nicaragua comes to a close and I sit here trying to wrap up and reflect on the month, the word that is coming into my head to sum it up is “room.” The question that goes along with that is “How does God have enough room in himself to love all of us and to love all of me?”
When I’m surrounded by large amounts of people, people rushing through dirty streets, people riding home on crowded buses, people trying to sell you shoes or vegetables, people I’ve never seen before and will never see again, I can’t help but think “How does God have enough room in himself to love every single one of these people?” The amount of love and affection God feels for just one of His creations is infinite, unconditional, and unfathomable. We could try a lifetime to love just one person with the depth that God loves us, but we would fail miserably.
When I think of how much God loves me, I’m amazed at His power and mercy. When I think of how much God loves all 7 something billion of us on Earth, it truly surpasses any understanding I could ever grasp. To love just a single person the way God loves us, I would have to give and give and give until I completely empty myself and still it would come nowhere close. The fact that God can give and give and give not only to me, but to every single person I see on a bus, every single person I pass on the street, makes me wonder where he holds it all. How does he so freely give love to people that blatantly hate him when I have trouble loving people that blatantly love me? Where does he hold all that love? How does he have all that room inside himself? And what can I do to create more room in me?
Nicaragua was basically a month of God drawing me closer to himself and laying a stronger foundation to prepare me for what’s to come. He’s starting to reveal some things I need to change that won’t be easy.
Thursday the 7th, we will be making our way to San Felix, Panama. I’m excited to see the growth in myself and my team as we face new challenges in Panama! Please continue to pray for safe travels, unity in my team, and for my fundraising. I appreciate all them prayers!
Also, I hope everyone is having a great holiday season. I keep forgetting it’s almost Christmas (probably because it’s in the 80’s with humidity here everyday). Crazy how the time is flying! I’ll leave you with a lyric from a song called “Extravagant” that we sang during a worship session this month that speaks to how awesome God’s love is.
It’s extravagant, It doesn’t make sense
We’ll never comprehend the way you love us
It’s unthinkable, Only heaven knows just how far you’d go
To say you love us
