These past few weeks have been such an amazing experience. I didn’t think that I would struggle with the changes that I knew I would be facing. Boy was I wrong! When I First came here I struggled with actually connecting with people. Which is a shocker for anyone who knows me, but I really didn’t know why. I soon found out that it really was how I was acting, my and attitude towards others was my problem. The past few months I have drastically changed in my attitude and how I act. After a breakup in August I really broke, when it happened I remember being so angry at god because why would he take my happiness and love away from me. God recently showed me that no he didn’t take it away at all, he just showed me that my happiness and love should have been focused on him. I put this relationship above god, so when I lost it, it was like my world ended. Now when I look at it I can admit it was for the best. I wasn’t chasing god and neither was he, which I realize was already my first mistake. So after all this I really just was a negative person, I wasn’t giving my problems up to God which is why I struggled with it for so long. I felt like I wasn’t enough, loved, pretty, or wanted. The healing was here the whole time all I had to do was give it to God. I was so stubborn and honestly kind of mean to the people who mean the most to me. A lot of people know me as this happy and energetic girl, and I thought I was still but it became evident that I wasn’t. I have drifted so far from god and my relationship with him. I spent a lot of time in the word and prayer and realized I need to just stand up and talk it out with others. Honestly that was scary for me, which is another shocker because I normally will stand up to people and speak my mind and I take more of that leadership position. Here is almost a complete different situation. My normal of being “Loud, bold, and energetic” had become quite and shy. SO WERID! I started to talk to others and came out of my shell which I am never normally in, in the first place. I took all these worries and insecurities to god and a my shoulders felt like a weight had been lifted right off. I have really found myself and who I am here. I am truly happy and my old problems and struggles aren’t even in the picture anymore. I feel absolutely ”free” which is what I posted on my Instagram! Anna.aee if you haven’t already followed me, I post daily things here! This trip really was everything I needed. I am so thankful to my parents and everyone who helped get me here.
my next blog I will post within the next few days about what a daily day looks like!
Thank you! <33
