It’s here folks! The day after tomorrow I will be heading off on this journey that has been months, if not years, in the making. I am ready to get this show on the road. These last couple weeks have been a very sweet time with my family and my friends in Minnesota. We have been able to live with each other in a very intentional way knowing that the one thing we took for granted, time with each other, will no longer be possible in the coming months.
Time carries on without pause and while I used to find that frustrating, I now find it comforting. There are times when I wish that time would hurry so I could go on vacation or do something exciting, there are also moments when I wish time would slow down. When I’m struggling to finish a test or savoring last moments with friends it would be easy if I simply had more time.
Looking back on these past couple weeks, the steady predictability of time has been a comfort. With unknowns in the future, I have been forced me to live in the present. I don’t want to wish away the coming struggles because I know that it is simply part of the road to a new season of joy or understanding. When I have struggles or hard experiences it will be comforting to know that time is carrying me through them.
This quote from Dietrich Bonhoeffer has resonated with me for quite a while.
“Time is the most precious gift in our possession, for it is the most irrevocable. This is what makes it so disturbing to look back upon time we have lost. Time lost is time when we have not lived a full human life, time unenriched by experience, creative endeavour, enjoyment and suffering. Time lost is time we have not filled, time left empty.”
To me, living a full human life means embracing the coming emotions, sitting in brokenness with others, experiencing the fullness of God, willing to be spent for Christ, and learning to hear the voice of the Holy Spirit and obey it.
