11 months ago I was in the Myrtle Beach airport crying and wondering if I could really do this. If I could really leave my family and friends, miss holidays and birthdays. There was never any doubt that this is what God wants me to do. Going was the easy part. I was excited to go. It was what I was leaving behind that was tearing me apart. I can’t believe that I will be home next week. This time I will be leaving my new family and stepping into the unknown again. I’m leaving people who have loved me through easy times and the hardest times. Even though I’m ready to go home it’s still what I’m leaving behind that will tear me apart. I still don’t know what’s next for me. I’ve been praying into some things but God hasn’t confirmed anything yet. So I’m transitioning into the unknown again which is scary but exciting! Society tells us we need a plan. A plan for our future – a plan for success. What is success? Success to me is trusting God with ALL of me and living the plans that He has for me – not the plans I have for me. It’s trusting Him when I don’t understand. Knowing that He is my Dad and has nothing but good things for me – even when it doesn’t always feel like it. Knowing that He is in love with me and will NEVER leave me- even when it doesn’t always feel like it – I know He is right beside with His arm around me always. Even though I don’t know what’s next, I do know that I’m in Gods hands and I trust Him to place me where He wants me. I do know that this is just the beginning!!
It’s overwhelming when I think about trying to tell people about this past year. So much has happened – the ministries, the relationships, the physical and the spiritual. So many countries have my heart. So many ministries have my heart. The people in this world are beautiful!!!! They have my heart! We have seen God move so much this past year. It’s been a personal journey as well. God has done so much in me. When I think about the woman I was and who I am now it overwhelms me. I’ve experienced FREEDOM. I now have a sweet intimate relationship with my Father. I did before but God had SO MUCH MORE for me to see, so much more love He wanted to rain on me. He keeps reminding me of what He thinks of me, what He says about me, how proud He is of me and how He is so in love with me. This has been an amazing journey – I can look back and honestly say I don’t regret any of it. Even though the world race is coming to an end – I know this is just the beginning and that makes me smile.
I want to thank everyone for supporting me. Financially, encouragement and prayers – You will never know how much all this meant to me this year. You are a blessing from God and I can’t thank you enough!!
