I've officially accepted my route for the World Race route 2 of July. For me, this begins a new era.
My whole life I have tried my best to do what is deemed "right," as far as social, moral and societal norms. Some by choice, and others by which could not be avoided; the transfers from elementary school, to middle school, to high school, to college, to getting the first "big kid job," and being in a long term relationship with your significant other.
So what happens when you're sitting at your "big kid job," and all you can think about is how unhappy you are; how you wished you had taken the time to live in the moment, because all of a sudden you're at "what you do for the rest of your life," and you just feel empty.
This emptiness never let go of me. It caused me to move in ways I've never expected- breaking all of my own rules. I ended my long term relationship, not because it was bad, but deep in my heart I knew it "just didn't feel right," and prayed and prayed and prayed.
One of these nights I couldn't sleep, opened my computer around 1AM and randomly stumbled across The World Race website. I instantly knew it was what I needed to do. Within one week I was accepted.
So I embrace my new calling of smashing all of my own rules. As it turns out, I really don't know what's best for me, and should just listen to God- like I should have from the very beginning. This idea in itself is terrifying to me. The World Race position I've accepted (traveling to 11 countries in 11 months, not seeing my family and friends for a whole year, selling all of my things, etc) is nothing compared to the fear I have for not following the "normal" thing to do, and not having something "normal" to come home to.
Fortunately, God responded to me with:
And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dress like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
This will be my Mantra for the next 1.5 years
This is a new era, and one of not my own.
