There comes a time in your life where you need to decide between pride and humility. I feel like this is a big lesson God is teaching me this year. Asking for money or other things is hard, especially coming from an American culture. If you ask someone else for money you are “lazy” “selfish” “rude”. Its such an individualistic point of view, look out for yourself. But as a missionary we have to raise funds. We have to ask other people for money so that we can do what we love, helping others. But where do those lines get crossed? Where do you go from humbling asking for something that God will bless you with, to being pridefully scared of asking for something that others will judge you for? When are you going to stop caring about what others think about you for asking, and just ask for others to bless you?
Well thats where I’m at. So far on this journey I have been blessed above and beyond what I expected, and I’ve been blown away by the generosity of others! But still I worry about asking for money or other things because I’m afraid of what others will say about me for asking such a thing! One of my teammates said something that made a lot of sense. She said “How can people know about your need if you don’t tell them?”
I never thought about that before. I am always so afraid of what people will think or say about me that I never take a chance and give someone the opportunity to bless me. How selfish is that? Do I really think the world of myself that the words of others can affect my whole life? Am I so focused on my outward appearance that I stand in the way of the blessings God wants to give to me? Geez, you’d think I learned my lesson already.
Okay here’s what I need! I am a missionary. A missionary who has no money. A missionary who is using the blessing of others’ provision to travel the world to share the love of Jesus Christ! I am a missionary who’s iphone 3gs just broke!!! I dropped it and the screen shattered! sad panda! That iphone was my music player, my camera to capture footage on the Race, it was my connection to home, my alarm clock, note-taker and so much more! As a poor missionary who will be overseas for the next 7 months, I do not have the necessary resources to buy a new phone! 🙁
What can you do? If anyone has an old iphone 4 or 5 that they do not need or want anymore, and would like to bless me with it, please let me know! I would be extremely grateful for your donation! It seems like a trivial thing, but to me it means a lot! God Bless you at home and have a very Happy New Year!!
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