Today we did ministry at IHNFA, a place for girls that have been in bad situations to take refuge. I took part in a skit that we presented. It was the “Seven Deadly Sins” skit (done to a Lifehouse song). My part was self harm. Originally I was supposed to do cutting. I was okay with it. But then one of the girls from our team was sick and had to stay home. So I was given the part of suicide by overdosing on pills.
My immediate reaction to this was “NO! I can NOT do this!” The reason being, for those of you who don’t know, I had a friend in the past that overdosed on medication. At the time I felt responsible, because I had held her pills to avoid this kind of situation. She felt she needed them, and I was leaving for the night, so I gave them back. And that was when she overdosed. I went to counseling for it, and thought I had dealt with it. But I guess there was something still lingering from that experience.
I prayed that God would give me peace and strength about playing this part, on the bus ride there. In my time with Him, He told me that this was not me, and never was. It is only a part in a drama that you are playing. There is no reason for fear or uneasiness. The skit went well overall, and I was able to play the part I was given, and do it to my best. God truly gave me peace about the whole situation, and little did I know how He was going to end the day.
After IHNFA, we went home, had dinner, some feedback, and a time of worship. Robby, one of our squad leaders, spoke at the end of the worship. The thing that stuck out the most to me from his talk was “BE YOURSELF!” It was a great encouragement! And it was a good reminder of one thing that I need to do this year – no one to impress, only to give my best to God!
Then Kylee, one of my teammates prayed with me. It was a wonderful moment. After that, the Holy Spirit came in a major way. People started laughing, and in no time I was laughing hysterically. Someone was speaking tongues over me. I have no idea what they said, but I know it was all amazing and wonderful! It was getting late and some of us were still laughing uncontrollably. We made our way outside, and after a long time, we were able to regain our composure. What a way to end the day!
It was a different setting, and more people included, but this was my dream! It came to life here in this beautiful place! Thank you God for the Holy Spirit, and the wonderful gift of LAUGHTER!
