If someone were to ask me how I felt about the ten days that I spent at training camp I would say “I had absolutely no idea what I was getting myself into.” I can honestly say that it was one of the most physically and emotionally challenging experiences of my life, but in the midst of the craziness I found a new family of fellow believers who all have one thing in common: a restlessness inside our soul and the call to serve God.
Training camp taught me several things about trying to control my own future. For one, Jesus has so much more planned than I could ever imagine. Another is something that was said during one of the sessions we had. A statement that one of the speakers (I don’t remember who it was) said was this: “Only God knows the future. The devil doesn’t know your future, therefore he can only try to use your past against you.” That in itself was a huge boost for me. I realized that all the doubt I had been directing toward this trip was because the whole time I was allowing the devil to use my past against me. I allowed myself to believe that I wasn’t good enough to be a missionary. I felt as though I wouldn’t be able to help others because I was still trying to figure out my own life. And finally, “there’s no such thing as the perfect missionary.”
When it seems like the weight of the world is on your shoulders and the devil is taunting you with your past, just give it all to Jesus. Complete surrender is one of the hardest things that I needed to go through to get to this point in my life. Complete surrender meant that I would need to give up control of my life. It meant that I would need to give up my dreams for the calling I felt on my life.
Before training camp I was still struggling with the decisions I had made. I didn’t feel like I was good enough to be a missionary. I wasn’t ready to leave my family and friends and all the comforts of home. Fundraising had not been going very well. I was struggling, funds were not being raised, and I thought maybe that was a sign that I wasn’t meant to go on this trip. I thought maybe I had misunderstood or misheard what I my calling was.
In the past week, with the help of my amazing family, I was able to raise over $4000 in three days. I have come to understand that I didn’t misunderstand or mishear anything. I was just using the lack of funds as an excuse to get out of what I felt called to and I was also letting my pride get in the way of asking people to support me financially.
SO HERE IS MY CALL FOR HELP!!!!
I currently have about $7500 dollars toward my trip. I still need another $3000 to meet my next funding deadline which is tomorrow (or today depending on which part of the globe you live on)!!! I know it seems crazy and impossible, but God can do the impossible.
This is what I need to get me to my goal..
150 people to give $20, or
60 people to give $50, or
30 people to give $100
Thank you guys so much for your continued support.
