I want you, whoever you may be, to understand something, the only reason I am here, in Romania, is because of how God has used you in my life. The only reason that I have been able to do anything that I have done over the past 5 months is because you have succeeded in being used by The Spirit to encourage me to do this. There have been mornings when I have woken up thinking that I must be insane for doing this, and I often remember the encouragements that I received even before leaving home, “What you’re doing is an incredible thing.” “God is going to use you to change the world.” “You are fulfilling a big part of your story.” “God is going to change you and grow you so much.” “You’re insane, it’s great and you’re going to come back so different, but this is crazy insane.” That last one may not sound encouraging but to me it really was. What I’m trying to say is, you’re as much a part of this trip as I am. I know that sounds hokey and corny, (I know corny I went to school in Indiana), but it doesn’t diminish the truth of it. Plain and simple I wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t for how the Holy Spirit worked in you. I pray that I have been used in such a way to be as impactful in your lives as well. That was worded funny, but you get the gist.
When it came to support raising I was pretty aggressive, or at least I thought I was, I’m not especially good at asking for money. Since being on the race God has often told me “Be still and KNOW that I am God.” This poses two huge issues for me; 1. I am not in control, He is God, I am not, (hmmmmm) 2. Being still, (AHHAHAHAHAHAA!) that means patience, faith and trusting that Him. These are not easy concepts for me to grasp, but I am working on them, God is teaching them to me on a daily, hourly, minute-by-minute basis. He has reminded me that when I say “Your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven” that I’m giving Him control, that includes over my funds. He also reminds me that just like all of the people I have met in my life I have been made “For such a time as this.” So ultimately, so long as I am pursing His will for me He will provide for me, He will use even the pain and the suffering in my life to bring me and those around me closer to Him. The thing is, I’m not the only one created, “For such a time as this.” We all are. All of us. So even as you’re sitting at your computer reading this, you can know that you’re made for this time. Take a moment and let this sink in, it’s pretty heavy and it is good. I have 1,500 to raise or I get to distribute my stuff to my Z Family and get on a plane to come back to the US. My deadline is March 1. Can it be done? I believe it can, with all my heart I know that if it’s God’s will for my life to finish off this race, I will be provided for. “And who knows but that you have come to royal position for such a time as this.” Esther 4:14. I need you to be with me on this, I want you to be with me on this. I want you and I to celebrate together when I do return in late July the journey that we have been through together.
