What did I do to deserve this? A question I asked myself a couple times today.
Today was our adventure day and our last day at midpoint debrief.. next time I blink it will be over!
Today we boated from our hostel to a little town on the lake called San Marcos. Here we came to cliff jump and really just enjoy our last day.
I underestimated the beauty of Guatemala. It’s impossible to be here and not fall madly in love with the people, the culture, the food, and Gods creation.
God painted the earth so beautiful and on this day I got to see the most beautiful view of my life.
Picture: it doesn’t do it justice
I feel like I’m in some kind of dramatic movie as I sit at the end of this dock bare foot, tan, and super tired looking out at this breathtaking view.
And as I sit on the dock and look out I couldn’t help but think back to a time when I thought I had my life figured out. I wanted to be a physical therapist and go to certain school, and work at a certain office, and have and do all these things.
You guys know how it is.. I want this job, this house, this salary, this car, this significant other, these friends.. then I will be happy. How crazy are the lies we tell ourselves?
God had other plans for me that on this day, January 16 2020, I would sit at the end of a dock in Guatemala and be totally in awe with where he has brought me.
It’s amazing how at peace we can be about life and how much we can really just enjoy it when we do life with God. I have found that even when trials come, when you have deep intimacy with Abba you still feel peace about life because you know he’s got you. And chances are if you’re miserable with life, you aren’t living it with God.
I just sat at this dock and thought it was so cool God didn’t give me what I wanted. I looked around and saw all the ginormous things that God has created but still felt so seen and so loved beyond measure.
God,
Thank you that you didn’t give me what I wanted. Thank you that you have patience with me through the process of knowing what you have for the future. God thank you that there was absolutely nothing that I did or could have done to earn the moment that you gave me today. God thank you for you the constant blessings in my life that pour over from your overflow. God thank you that even though the mountains were so big and the sky was so vibrant and the wind so strong, you still see me and count me as more valuable than these. God thank you that a life with you takes us deeper than the ocean and further than the east is from the west. God thank you that your will for me is perfect and even when I don’t see it or feel it you are always working for my good because I love you.
