All my life I kept people at arms length for my own safety and security but also for fear of being known by someone and it not being enough.
But as im learning the risk in relationship is being vulnerable with the knowledge that the people I let in can hurt me or leave me.
But I still want to be known and know others, the problem is I’m comfortable being alone.
God never intended us to live life alone.
As God has been speaking life into me I have realized that what I have to offer someone is valuable and I deserve to be known by other people but also to know other people because I value what is inside of them.
The fear of the what if is still there sometimes.
What if they don’t like me
What if they leave
What if it doesn’t work out
What if they hurt me
Every what if is from the devil
I have chosen to adopt and even if
Even if they don’t like me
Even if they leave
Even if it doesn’t work out
Even if they hurt me
I will still love
Imtimacy is from the father it’s something he desires for us, I will love because christ first loved me. He chose me knowing my imperfections so I will choose others without knowing and with the sole intention of loving them.
The first fruit of the spirit is love and that’s no coincidence. Our calling in life is to love, and love without conditions, but love takes risks. Sometimes scary ones sometimes ones that bring fear. But we cant love other if we don’t know the love of the father for ourselves.
That is the biggest risk to allow the love of the father the pentrate us so deeply to the point it moves us to love and compassion for others.
