When I was 9 years old I accepted the Lord as my savior, and I got baptized. Back then I was so excited to know Abba, read his word, and continue to go deeper with him. But when I was 9 I couldn’t even begin to dream of what life would look like when I was 19.
Now that I’m 19 I can tell you I have gone deeper, farther, and wider than I ever thought I would go. The first 10 years with the Lord have been amazing. I have gotten to know His character, His heart, His true love, His mercy, and His grace.
Through the years I was not always faithful, I didn’t always understand and I wasn’t always happy with the Lord, but in all of this I have learned the Lord desired for reconciliation and intimacy with me.
Going through things like weak family dynamics, anxiety and eating disorders, low self image, and fear of the future has definitely had me doubting Abba and His goodness to me. But every time He has met me where I’m at without judgment or shame, and has brought so much patience, love, and grace. that is how our Lord pursues us.
In my 19th year, the lord has spoken the word obedience. This word took me all the way back to when I was the 9 year old little girl standing in the hot tub at church getting baptized and giving the Lord my yes, all the way to know the 19 year old young woman in Guatemala getting baptized in a tub in the yard giving the Lord my yes again.
My first 10 years with the Lord were soo amazing and have grown and stretched me so much. But I can’t wait for the next year, and the rest of life to love with the Lord in RADICAL OBEDIENCE, giving Him my yes no matter what.
I gave my yes to the Lord then, I have given my yes to the Lord now, and I will give my yes to the Lord when he asks for it again. And I’m not going to give my yes because He will bless me for honoring Him, I’m going to give it to Him because He is worthy of it all.
