Dooma calls us to come into the house as she always does. Cheerful and ready to meet the family we all crowd into a room. One by one we were blind sided with no warning of what we were about to walk into.
There were no chailrs pulled up for us, no fresh orange juice to sip while we talked about God and prayed for their family. Only a bed, with a frail sick woman, Jolinda, lying in pain and her daughter. Jolinda appeared to be in her 40's or 50's. Her hair was gone. Her body was thin. Her daughter stood over her with a wash cloth fan her to try and comfort her. Occasionally she would moan and cry in pain.
Jolinda, has been suffering with cancer for a year. She hasn't been able to eat in 5 days and it seemd as though she had little to no voice left. In a matter of seconds my heart was broken into a million pieces. Our door to door ministry just got personl!
I've had a glimpse of how cancer takes a toll on a family. I watched my Grandma and my Aunt struggle through this painful disease. Even with modern technology and pain killers it was agonizing. Now, I was standing in front of a woman in the middle of the mountains. No strong pain killers, only cold wash cloths and her daughter to stand by her side.
I felt so helpless. I cried and I cried. I tried to hide it because I felt so guilty for my tears. I didn't know this woman. I wasn't there through all her suffering. I trusted that God could heal her but it still hurt. It hurt so deeply to see this kind of pain and physically I could do nothing to console Jolinda's pain. I knew that only God could bring the kind of comfort she needed. So we prayed fiercly for her. Nathan started singing over her and although she was still in pain I could see a tiny light in her eyes. A light that only Jesus could bring in such a time of great pain and agony.
God met us in that house. There was no instant healing but as Nathan gently touched her head there was a smile. A smile that said more than words could ever say. A woman who probablly hasn't smiled in months was able to smile. If she was able to smile that means that, even if only for a moment, she felt joy in her heart dispite this cancer despite this enfermity that had drained all joy and all hope.
I don't know if I will ever understand why God heals some and not others but in that moment God's love was so evident. As I started to ask God why I heard him saying that healing doesn't always look like we expect it to but if we call on him. If we ask him there is always….ALWAYS… comfort in the arms of Jesus.
I will continue to pray with confidence that God will bring healing to Jolinda but whether there is miraculos healing or not I know that Jesus is sitting by her and comforting his daughter whom he loves so dearly.
PLease pray for Jolinda and prayerfuly consider supporting me financially through the link on the left side bar of this page so I can stay on the race. It would be great if I don't have to be sent home in December due to lack of support.
Miss you all so much!! God Bless!!
