Little did I know when I left on the race I would have time to sit and scratch my head. While I sit here in my bed I am pondering everything that God has been and is doing. God has really put it on my heart to share more in depth what he is doing so you can share in the experience with me.
In Romania, my heart was shocked to see people who lived so closely to such wealth living in such extreme poverty. We would see a BMW right next to a family whose only form of transportation was a horse drawn carriage. When we arrived in Romania we knew that we would be working with the gypsies but I didn't know how the experience would effect me. Seeing children fighting each other for food and following after the van in hopes of getting clothes, tooth paste and soap broke my heart. This took my heart back to the devestation I felt when working in the tent villages of Haiti.
One family we worked with had six children, the income for the family was only seven U.S dollars per night! That same night we went to McDonalds for supper and spent about that same amount per person for one meal! What I enjoy frequently in America
is this family’s income for the day! Another family we got to work with had two children with a disability and 3 girls. When we gave them a ride home they gracious invited us up to their 4th floor apartment. The family had two apartments across the hall from each other, neither of which had a bath room or a “real” kitchen for that matter. The apartment reminded me of the space in a small college dorm with a sink. While we were there I had the opportunity to share my life story with the family, specifically their defiant teenage daughter who was in the pursuit of worldly happiness, something that I am all too aware of the emptiness it leaves!
Through all this I am left asking God why? God I am so small, I can't change the world, there's too much that needs fixed. God why have you blessed me with this opportunity to go all over the world and tell people about you. Why me? God why do I have to see all these things that are breaking your heart? Praise God, I am left assured that even that one… the one little sheep is worth it all!
"If a shepherd has one hundred sheep, and one wanders away and is lost, what will he do? Won't he leave the ninety-nine others and go out into the hills to search for the lost one? 13And if he finds it, he will surely rejoice over it more than over the ninety-nine that didn't wander away! 14In the same way, it is not my heavenly Father's will that even one of these little ones should perish.
