Last night we went to the church to watch a movie with the
youth group. They show a movie and then talk about it. We thought it would be
fun. However, the movie was “The Road�. I am pretty sure that it’s rated R. It’s
a dark movie and has a lot of gore mostly due to cannibalism. If you know me I
don’t do scary/dark movies especially when it has gore in it. I sat there watching the story begin to play
out thinking, ok I can do this, it’s only a movie. As the movie progressed and
the scenes got darker and darker I wondered about how they could allow these
kids watch this. My heart was racing and I wanted to leave, but I thought that
might be rude.
Then came the scene that did me in. It was a scene almost
directly from one of my worst nightmares; blood and half eaten/ripped body parts
everywhere. Literally 10 seconds before this scene occurred I finally turned to
Angie and asked if it would be rude if I left. Then BAM this scene came. I was
sweating, shaking, tears were running down my face, and all of a sudden it
became harder and harder for me to breathe. I was struggling to get my inhaler
out of my backpack. I couldn’t believe that I was having another asthma attack
and that it was due to a movie. Angie
finally took my bag found my inhaler and gave it to me. Thankfully Paul saw
what was going on and helped me out of the room. We went and sat at a table and
we went on his computer to distract me, and calm me down.
I felt so weak in that moment. I
finally stopped shaking and my breathing became more normal. Paul stayed with
me the whole time. I apologized profusely, but he assured me it was alright.
Apparently the movie was about the father’s love for the boy and how he
protected him no matter what the circumstance was. I must have missed that
memo.
This is
the road I am traveling. It’s dark at times. Along its path are many dangers
and trials. However, I must remember that my father loves me and it’s a deep,
unending kind of love. My father protects me and is always looking out for me.
He sends angels ahead of me and behind me. He puts people in my life that look
out for me and comfort me when I am hurt. My father will never back down or
away from me. I have nothing to fear because I know that I am protected and
loved.
