I know that my last post talked about freedom, but the whole point behind this blog is the share what God is teaching me throughout my race, and this past month this is the one thing that He has been chiseling into me.
Not knowing what’s ahead can send you into a downward spiral of fear, and when you operate in that downward spiral you allow fear to make your every decision.
“Do I stand up for what I believe in? I don’t know how they will treat me afterwards.” “Do I talk to that person? I mean I don’t know what they are feeling.”
See the fear of the unknown can rule your life. It can become your master and it will dictate your every move and make you miss out on the gifts that have been put right in front of you. That’s what I’ve been letting happen for the past 4 months. Fear of not knowing what the days hold. Not knowing what my life will look like after the race. Not knowing who I am on and off the race. Not knowing what people think of me and my actions. I have operated at times in that fear and because of it I’ve missed out on opportunities to truly live.
But not anymore!
The other day I had a conversation with a friend and afterwards God spoke to me and I realized just how much of this race and of life that I have missed out on because I have let fear run certain areas of my life. I have been allowing this fear to direct my paths, allowing it to control a life that does not belong to fear. God spoke to me about true freedom, and how when we give every area of our lives over to Him in complete surrender that’s when we have freedom! When we offer up the unknown to Him and allow Him to control it we find freedom!
We can’t be slaves to fear any longer. We can’t let fear dictate our lives as if it was our master. I was listening to a podcast by a man named Timothy Ateek and he said “The greatest step into freedom that you can make, is to step into slavery of Jesus Christ.”
I’m through living with an irrational fear of the unknown. I now accept the unknown, and what it holds. I may not know what’s in store for me in the days to come, but whatever it is, I’m going to face it head on walking in a gift that I have accepted from God… Walking in freedom.
