There was something that God laid on my heart the other night and to tell you the truth I didn’t know what it was. I just had a feeling in the middle of worship that I had to open my bible. I didnt know where I was opening to but I knew what I would be looking for when I found it. So I start going through my bible flipping to random verses and was thinking to myself “None of these are the right thing.”. Then I turned to Isaiah. I saw one of my favorite verses in the bible and I think its one that the majority of us if not all of us who are on the race know, Isaiah 6:8. “And I heard the voice of The Lord saying ‘whom shall I send? Who will go for Us?’ And I stood up and said ‘Here I am Lord, send me!”
When I read this again I knew exactly what God was wanting to tell me. Get up out of my comfort zone. Now Yes I have left the comfort zone that consist of my house and my bed and my shower heads that gives more then a little trickle and wifi that doesn’t cost a ridiculous $5 a hour, but there is more that God is wanting me to give up. I fell into the comfort zone of only allowing myself to see God in ways that I have seen Him in the past.
When God asked us to get up and leave our comfort zones to make disciples of all nations He didn’t mean “Get out your comfort zone only to hop back into one and do the absolute bare minimum” He called us to get up, go and do. And I started to see what exactly I was doing. I was in the rut of what I knew and wasn’t allowing God to expand my horizons to see just how awesome He is. I figured that if I haven’t seen God move in ways that i have already seen then He wasn’t going to move in new and miraculous ways. I know, dumb right? To say that God cant move in any way He wants to?
I finally got over myself and started to allow God to move in ways that He saw fit and its absolutely amazing. The biggest way that He has been showing Himself to me through is in words. Words that people say to me, or in the words that they write down and give to me.
One thing that people have told me for a while and that my insecurity of failing has denied, is that I have a good singing voice. I have been told this since I can remember, and every time someone says it I would just smile and say thank you and then quickly change the subject, because I didn’t want to get into it and then fail. But in the course of two days and a few prayers of me asking God to show me His will for me, multiple people walked up to me and would tell me about the gift of a voice that God has given me and how I should join the worship track, and after I would be done talking to them i would go to my room to find a few notes waiting for me at my door. each one saying the exact same thing. but there was one person and one letter that made it beyond clear to me. I was talking to one of my best friends on the squad and they were affirming me i my voice and were being used by God to crush my insecurities and then I went back and found a note that was written to me before we had even left the states and started the race. It was as if my friend had opened this note and memorized it word for word. I came on this race expecting to be rocked by the people that me and my squad meet while on the race, I wasn’t expecting to have my world rocked by the people on my squad and the words that they say to me. (by the way I am now on the worship track and am leading worship in a few days)
So my challenge to you while I am sitting here in Haiti is that you would allow God to open your eyes. Allow Him to move in you in ways that you haven’t allowed Him to in the past. It goes far beyond just walking up to someone you don’t know and sharing the gospel or going and feeding the homeless, both good things, but its more then that. It goes deeper then that, and its amazing!
