God Broke Me in the Shower
“How can I stand here with You, and not be moved by You?”
Today I just went about my everyday life. Today I woke up, went to school, worked 5 hours after, and then I came home. Same thing as almost every other day of my life. Same, same, and same. And sometimes I feel like I just throw God into my schedule however I can fit Him best, and it just becomes the same old routine thing to do. Like how can I go about my daily “Christian” routine and not constantly be moved by who God really is?
I always listen to music in the shower. It’s just the thing I do every time. It’s “routine”. I have my little playlist and everything, although tonight that wasn’t the case. Do the words I started off with sound familiar? If they didn’t they came from a song called “Everything” by Lifehouse. I just listened to the words of the song really deeply for the first time and that one line stuck out the most to me. It just got me to thinking yeah, anyone can say “I read the Bible for an hour every morning” or “I haven’t missed a single Sunday or Wednesday in my entire life”, and it makes me sick. I hear it from other people, but I do it just as much if not more. I have to think “So you’re telling me that God, the creator of the Heavens and the universe, Jesus, the man who physically died the most gruesome and painful death ever, and the only perfect Man who gave up everything for the filthiest of scum, simply wants to have a personal life-changing relationship with you and all you can do is brag about your personal religious achievements?”
What happened to when all I, as a Christian, wanted to do was brag about the sheer wonders of the things Jesus had done? I believe that every true Christian has had at least that one time of just pure brokenness and selflessness where the only desire they had in their heart was to love God with everything they had. So if be, just please stop what you are doing for a few seconds and think about that time. Remember that feeling? Remember either physically or metaphorically being on your hands and knees begging God to clean the filthy rag that we as humans are? Remember solely wanting to do whatever it took to tell everyone on Earth about the relationship you have with this amazing guy named Jesus? This is how it needs to be every day. Like yes I can do the “Christian thing” by going to church and reading the bible, but in reality if it isn’t to just completely show off my God then what is the reason?
I will end this blog with a story I heard from the movie that helped to lead me to Christ. So this pastor is driving in his nice, probably new car through the streets of a large city. He is stopped by a red light. So as most of us do at this time he just starts to look at the things around him when he comes across a homeless man wheeling a giant wooden cross on his shoulder. The pastor leans out of his window and asks the man if he needs a ride anywhere. The man walks over dragging this cross behind him and asks the pastor a simple question. “Do you believe in the cross of Jesus Christ?”. The man says “Well I’m a pastor” and the homeless man just shakes his head and tells the man that he didn’t answer his question, then repeats the question until the Pastor replies with yes.
When it all boils down to it, the deeds I have done do not matter when I am facing God. People always say to me, “Oh it’s awesome that you are going on this trip”, “I can’t believe you are going to be helping people all around the world for 9 months”, “You are going to do amazing things over there”. They will try to make it about the “amazing things” I am doing and I just have to stop them in their sentence and say no. Do not glorify me for going to serve. God is the only reason I am even breathing right now, much less than allowing me to going overseas to tell people about him. And sometimes I have to take a step off my high horse and tell myself the same thing. Everything I do is to bring glory to only God, never to myself. So ask yourself that question. Are you just trying to please God with the deeds you do, or do you actually have that personal relationship with Him to where your day would not be the same without Him? Do you believe you could not take your next step without Him? Do you believe you could not hop in your car and drive to church without him? Do you believe you could not sing that next song, teach that next lesson, or preach that next sermon without Him?
Do You Believe?
