It’s hard to believe that we are already two months into the fellowship. But things are finally to the point where I can say that I have “my feet firmly planted in mid-air.”
It might seem as though I am getting a few things figured out (blogging not included) but honestly there are still many days when I feel I’m back at square one. In fact the question, “how did I get here?” comes up in my mind quite often. Looking back I can say with the utmost confidence that I have stumbled repeatedly into what God has for me.
Transitioning home after World Race Gap Year was incredibly challenging for me. Days seemed to drag on endlessly and I didn’t feel like I could get a handle on life in any sense. Although things have gotten better, my head is still a mess and my emotions are something of a train wreck. I’ve been asked about my goals and passions so many times that I would just rather have someone tell me what they should be. Why is this happening now? Why would God allow me to go through such a season of confusion right when there are so many opportunities in front of me?
I don’t have any answers to those questions. I used to think that I did, but now I know better. What I do know, above everything else, is my favorite attribute of God; that He is faithful. He is always up to something and although I don’t know what it is right now, I know it will be good.
One thing that I remember now and then, and then promptly forget, is how important it is to cultivate an attitude of thankfulness. That dawned on me this morning as I was starting work. When your heart is full of thankfulness toward God, there is no room left for worry or doubt. And let’s face it, there is plenty to be thankful for. Even when I seem to be falling apart, if I stop and take a look it’s hard to believe everything that He has given. The projects that I get to be involved in are incredible and the people I am around are amazing.
To be caught up in the life of God. Isn’t that an awesome thought? I’m not sure if I stole that from somewhere or if I thought of it, but the greatest thing about it is that it’s an actual thing. We are invited to be caught up in the life of God. However, if we’re caught up with ourselves we might not get caught up with Him like we could. Lord help us to let go of ourselves and get caught up in your life, right here and right now.
