The idea of writing this blog made me want to puke it still does as I’m writing it but God has shown me it needs to be said and I need to release myself from the shame of my past.
Inside the church so many unrightfully so put certain sins up on some kind of twisted pedastool to say they are clearly worse than others most commonly Lust and Masturbation. Sin is sin point blank period, But let’s be clear I’m not here to condemn anyone just an observation through my experiences of how Christians view sin.
I personally struggled with those two things myself so much so that I would be praying for forgiveness and have thoughts come into my head about when to do it again. It reached a point that I had no Hope I had no Faith because se I felt useless to God. Many times I said why even let me live God because I’m such a disappointment. I was ready to let Him send me out the door to never return again, and I was positive God wanted nothing to do with a wretch like me.
Here’s the beautiful thing though I’m still here I’m still living and God has things He will accomplish for His kingdom through me! Not because I am some amazing missionary but because I am REDEEMED by the one true God. It wasn’t easy getting here but God never left my side through it all.
So to anyone out there stuck in Lust or both let me tell you it may not be easy but it’s simple allow Jesus to rid you of those things. Do not kill yourself trying to do it on your own I promise you it will be like running circles and you’ll never get anywhere. I tried for far too long to beat it on my own it doesn’t work.
Let God show you the way out! I don’t care if that means smashing your computer not having any social media and not even having a phone. I used all the excuses for myself and why I didn’t need to give up those thing.
you need them for your job? SO WHAT
you’ll lose your job? SO WHAT
you’ll have nothing? SO WHAT
you’ll lose all your friends? SO WHAT
listen yall Jesus didn’t have the latest Iphone or all the social medias He went out into the world and was personal with people. Point being you can survive without that stuff. Yes in Jesus you can even survive without money, Jesus didn’t go stay in 5 star hotels whipping out hundred dollar bills everywhere he went when it was time for him to rest He just simply needed a place to rest His head. Living for Jesus isn’t about comfort or being a part of the “popular in crowd”.
So you have a choice to make give it all up let God rid you of the sin or let lust and masturbation eat you alive, I promise you it will absolutely destroy and kill every hope and dream you’ve ever had. It will destroy relationships and even make you want to turn on God, I plead with you don’t let that happen cry out to God!
Thank God He never left me and never stopped loving me He stayed patient in helping me turn my life around because outside of God I am absolutely nothing and this world has nothing for me. It’s a rough journey but God will see you through it, and I promise He will forgive and He will Redeem you are not too far gone! Sure it’s a redmeption story for me now but that doesn’t mean I don’t how you feel because I lived it for far too long until I let God wreck and redeem me.
Every Redemption story started somewhere why not let yours start right here right now this very second?
I Promise any answer you can give to not turn it over to God isn’t worth it!
