Who are you? I mean, who are you really? This is a question I have asked myself over and over again for years, always coming to a different conclusion. So many times I thought I knew who I was, but what I now realize is I was never even close. Everything that surrounds us in the world influences the person we think we are, the person we want to be, the person we try to be. It wasn’t until this month that I realized that the physical, external things about me really define my true self in no way, shape, or form.
My whole life I have focused on the way I look, the way I act, the things I can do, and the way I am perceived by others. Having this focus has resulted in fear controlling my life up until now. All these years I have tried to figure out who I really was, but couldn’t. This is because the common thread between each of these things has been myself. My focus was in the wrong place the whole time. As funny as it many sound, I never could figure out who I was because I was asking myself that question instead of the one who knew me better than myself: God.
Psalm 139 says,
“O Lord, you have searched me and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O Lord… For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.”
I am starting to finally live my life as the person God created me to be, and it is because I have started to see myself as He sees me for the first time. I am no longer the scared little boy I used to be, and I have been told by many that it shows.
This new perspective has changed everything. I am free and I am new, but that doesn’t mean everything has become easy. This past month has challenged me to live out my real identity on a daily basis. But God has been there with me the whole way, and has placed people in my life that have helped me keep my focus on Him and not myself. When I have been discouraged, my team reminded me relentlessly who I was, and what really defines me.
Now, as I transition into a new team, and a new continent, I am not anxious and I am not fearful. I am confident. I know who I am now, because I know how God sees me.
Also, I am now two months away from my final fundraising deadline! As of today, I am at $11,495 in my support account, meaning I need less than $5,000 to be fully funded for the World Race! I can say without a doubt in my mind that I am a different person than I was four months ago, and guarantee that change will be evident when I return to the states. As great of a work God has done in me, he is doing even greater things in the countries we are being sent, so I ask you to prayerfully consider supporting my World Race. Much Love and God Bless!
P.S. Go Giants! 2014 World Champions!
