I fell to my knees and found myself crying. I had spent the last twenty minutes engulfed in prayer. Our team found ourself in a crisis. Amanda for some reason unknown to us was going into anafalactic shock. She found her eyes puffing up and herself losing her sight.
We had spent the day wandering around town seeking the Lord as to where we were to go and who we were to talk to. We have been in training all week and learning how to let go of ourselves and to let God work through us. This was our first opportunity to put this into practice. We would pray, seek the Lord´s direction and go forth. We wound up splitting up and Amanda, Candice and myself went down a side street to play some soccer with some kids. I went to play with them while Amanda and Candice talked to the people at the store where were playing. James, Morgan and Emily were walking around and talking to different people in the neighborhood.
I played for a little while and then Amanda and James came to play some too. We played for a little while longer and then decided to head back home. I really felt like we should walk up this hill a different way then which we came.
We got to the top of the hill and found an interenet place and so Morgan went it and was using it. Candice, Emily and I were going to walk around and James was staying with Amanda and Morgan. As we were leaving I said, we may not be back and we will just meet you back at the place, but as I said it James looked me square in the eye and said, “no, You will come back.” It was really powerful and so we agreed we would come back, not knowing exactly why.
We all came back and within minutes Amanda started feeling herself going into Shock. Her eyes were getting puffy and she was losing her vision and she was getting really scared. We all started praying knowing the seriousness of what was at hand. Her doctor had told her that the last time this happened that the next time this happened he didn´t think that she would make it through. We prayed and we prayed. She started to feel a little better so we decided that we would go and get a cab and head back to our base. We started walking and Amanda starting feeling numb all over. And so Morgan and James ran to get a cab. As the rest of us sat down and prayed. They finally came back and we rode in silent prayer back to the base and then all ran inside. We got everyone who was there to come and lay hands on Amanda and just pray.
It was incredible it was as if the Army of the Lord showed up and the healing power of God came down. She was healed. Not just a little bit and not from something that just goes away. She was taking from the grips of death and restored to go forth into the nations.
I don´t pretend to have any answers of how God heals, I don´t really understand it all in terms of theology. I know that I saw a person who should of been in the hospital at the least, walking as if nothing had happened. I don´t have the answer as to why I was screaming earlier in the day because they wanted to seperate our team for the day, and I felt so strongly against that. I don´t have the answer to why James made sure that we came back to that internet place. But I trust that as we go we learn to just trust that God will lead. And I also realized how Big God is and how small I am. As I was on my knees, I knew there was nothing that I could do to help her. Either God had to show up or she was gone. I cried out, “God you have to come, we need to come and heal her.”
I am not scared anymore, it isn´t up to me. It isn´t in my hands. All I can do is fall before the grace of Jesus and pray that he will have mercy on all of us. I just want you all to know that we can´t do it. None of us can. I can´t believe how much of my life I have tried going my own way trying to figure it all out. Arguing over things that mean nothing. Trying to make things happen. This experience has changed my perspective. I know that I can´t do a thing, and although it may seem scary, it is the most freeing thing ever.
