After talking to an awesome girl in my squad several days ago, I've gained a little more motivation to blog. I currently have only 7 people subscribed to my blog and that makes it hard to be motivated, but after talking with Janelle, who cares how many I have? I would find myself trying to think about what I should write, which in the end led to nothing as you can see in the previous days! But instead of trying to pull something out of the clouds, I realized my blog should be about what God lays on my heart. So, here we go! This journey since March has been a tough one! Not only has it been tough since March, but it also extends back to last June when God began working on my heart to set me apart for what He has for me. He took a 15 month relationship and tore it apart, and the days after that have been a struggle to keep me apart from everything else for Himself. That right there is proof enough that God is persistent and always gets what He wants!! Then He led me to the WR where there is a whole new challenge to face. Trusting and believing in the Lord to supply my every need. Then there are the questions, am I really where God wants me? How am I going to raise all this money? Then He tells me to shut up!!!! He tells me, Haven't I gotten you this far? What's your problem? Why are you grumbling? Don't you read my Word? Haven't you heard my stories? I'm God!! The biggest, badest Dude on the block. I run things! I make the show go on!! I put the Earth into motion and the stars in their place. Don't FORGET IT!!!!! Then God provides and there comes the slap in the face. It's like, REALLY?? And He says you should've believed the first time and you wouldn't be freaking out so much. So then He provides and it's on like Donkey Kong! Then the question…why didn't you believe the first place? The answer is simply my faith was in something else but in HIM! The God of all creation and EVERYTHING! The GREAT JEHOVAH JIREH. We choose to put our belief and hopes in EVERYTHING else but the God of the universe. How stupid and ignorant can we really be? Come to me all you who are weary and burden and I will give you rest! How many people actually take God's Word what it truly says and walks in it each and every day? Probably very few if any. But that's the whole existence of our "FAITH", which is born through relationship with Christ! To trust and believe in HIM, that His Word will never return void, so that we can always walk in reassurance that what He says is 100% the TRUTH! Then we wind up complicating everything else with our disbelief which drives us into a hole which satan has purposely dug out for you and I to keep us literally and figuratively "down in the dirt!" How terrible is that? As believers, we need to get out of the dirt pit and take charge in our own personal faith! As soon as we do that, then God can and will truly use us! But again, that comes through faith and trust in God Himself. But where does that faith come from? It comes from a daily consistent walk with Him, in which we communicate daily and frequently with and through our Savior. But first we must know Him. If we never come to know Him, we can never own our on faith and walk perfectly and freely in the lives and freedom which He created us for. Sadly in return for that, we will be separated from Him for all eternity, something He desires for none.
