Unworthy, not good enough, weak, fear…lies of the devil. The last day has been a very difficult one. We've experienced so much, and also have done so much. Simulations of the lives we will come in contact with have left a very disgusted taste in my mouth. Last night I became angry and very broken because of the problems others face in the world. People stripped from their families, people taken into sex trade based on lies that promote better lives, complications to keep their families together while crossing borders. These mere simulations of events became reality for me last night. I became so bitter and angry because of these things, and satan began to attack telling me that I wasn't worthy to do go and help these people, that I wasn't strong enough, and that there was nothing I could do to bring hope to these hurting people. Lies…lies straight from the devil. First of all I don't get my strength from myself. I get my strength from HIM!!! God began to use others to speak life into me, and these thoughts and doubts began to decrease. More of Him and less of me. He began to remind me that I was annointed just as David and Moses were, that I have power through Him to change the world. Not by anything that I can do or by my own strength, but once I rely on Him and truly allow His word to sink in, I can heal the lame, the blind, the broken, and change the world with His POWER!!
