It's weird, when I was a little kid, I hated getting stuff that I needed. If it wasnt a play thing, I didn't want it. A little spoiled, I know, but I was a kid. Now for Christmas, I think about what Christmas will be like from now. For one, next year i'll be in a totally different country and not with my family. This will hurt, but i'm counting on being close enough to my teammates that we won't miss a beat. I'm excited! 2 years ago, I spent New Years in Haiti and it was incredible, we went to a beach with the orphans from the place we were staying and it was gorgeous. It's insane how different Christmas is in other countries. I can't wait. This past month has consisted of me grinding to try and get enough money for this race. I have worked every day up to Christmas and i''m also going to be working every day after. Here is my thing tho: do I trust God enough to grind and let Him handle it without me scheming?
