It’s been almost a month since I made a final commitment to go on “the race” and about 2 weeks since I sent out my support letters. The reality of my decision has truly set in as I begin to make preparations before setting off on my journey. There seems to be a long list of “to-do’s” as I’m readying myself to exit this American culture that I am so used to now. I find myself looking at other racers’ blogs and am amazed and humbled at the group of people that I will be serving alongside. Reading their stories and reasons for going on this race has forced me to look inward and truly question what I am doing. Am I just trying to escape the mundane 9-5 workday or just “get off the grid?” Am I looking for a sincere excuse to travel and see the world without seeming selfish? …But when I take a moment to pause, I realize just how head over heels in love I am with Jesus the living person. This simple fact is where it began (my love for his goodness and trustworthiness and justice). My desires in life are no longer the same, I cannot deny this. I cannot deny the joy I have in life since trusting in Jesus more and more…NOTICE I didn’t say happiness, but something much greater. The joy that comes from someone who is always there with me and always a willing advocate for me. I guess I just want to introduce this new person in my life to others. How selfish it would be to keep this all to myself. While, this is a mentality I have tried to maintain while in the working world, I have definitely struggled with it. It’s just not enough and I want more. I’m not sure if this make sense, but Church on Sunday’s and bible study on Monday is not enough. I want to give more to the one who gave it all…
P.S. I’ve never really blogged before so bare with me if I’m doing this wrong (if their even is a possibility of doing this wrong).
God Bless!
