So this month each team has a primary ministry they are working with. Some of us are feeding people in the slums, some are doing prison ministry, others are working with street boys and my team is working with the children’s home here at K.I.M. Let me just say first off that I absolutely love that this is where God put our team this month. It is crazy awesome that I get the chance to hold toddlers, tutor elementary kids, and play with kids of all ages this month. God really blessed me and gave me the desire of my heart this month. Working with these kids has been the best thing ever. I feel like I come alive a little bit more when I get to spend time with them. It is amazing!
Each person on the teams is also allowed to do a secondary ministry in another area. I’ve been asking God what my secondary ministry should be. There are some good things going on, but I didn’t feel any real tug towards any of them, except the 24/7 prayer hut we have going on. I thought,
“Well that can’t be my secondary ministry, because everyone is involved in that. It’s really something the whole squad is doing. So, what is it that you also want me to focus on this month God?”
Still the word prayer kept coming to mind. Finally, last week I gave in to what God was asking of me. I had the night shift at the nursery, but I was back here in time for breakfast and after that and some catch up time with people here I went down to my room and prayed until lunch. Then, the afternoon I was already signed up for the prayer hut for two hours and I went in there.
God spoke to me in different ways, but mostly I felt the call to pray for the squad and the things that are coming on the horizon for us as well as for each of my teammates, and that God would break my heart this month for the things that break His. My prayers looked differently. Sometimes, I spoke to God in my heart, sometimes I wrote it out, others I listened to music, others I read His word, and still other times I drew pictures to convey my prayers. Still, in all these ways God has heard my prayers.
This isn’t an easy thing for me to do, devote so much time to prayer, I feel like I’m sitting around while other people are working and doing stuff. God is teaching me it isn’t about doing stuff. I can do all the stuff I want, but unless it is what God has called me to then it is meaningless. They are just actions without power behind them. I don’t want that. I want the time I do spend in ministry with the kids to be meaningful and bring God’s love to their lives. I can’t do that unless I follow His will, which is to pray as well.
