The question I have been trying to
answer in the past month has been, “How do I have roots and wings at the same
time?” It’s a tedious balancing act, and
perhaps it’s not entirely possible I’m not sure. Let me explain a bit more.
Remember that job I really
wanted? That was like the perfect mix of
all things, because it gave me roots and wings.
I got to go and do overseas with orphans, but I also got to come home
and enjoy the roots that are planted here as well part of the year. I was happy with that. However, now that is not an option I have to
figure out what things look like.
For the past year
and a half or so I have felt that God was saying, “Stay here” so I stayed
stateside. However, I now feel like that
door has opened up again and I want to go.
I have been looking at options that may be out there for me and praying
about things. That has been an ongoing
focus. (More on this in a later post I promise)
However, in the
meantime I am here, in Indiana, teaching preschool (sure didn’t see that one coming!) and doing life
here. Is this what I thought I would be
doing….I do not think you’re surprised to hear me say “No.” Is this where God has put me for
now…Yes. Yet, I do not want to get too
rooted. I fear if I get too rooted and
too comfortable I will forget why I want to go and I won’t go at all.
So, how do I have
roots since I have to live day to day in the place that the Lord has put me
right now? Yet how do I have wings to go
and do and be when God calls me into that?
It’s really a daily struggle. I
have to wake up each day and choose to live in the now, but also choose to not
allow that to keep me from looking ahead to what may be on the horizon. It makes for a restless soul inside of me,
but I know that is a good thing. That
the Lord is stirring up something within me for the next season and giving me a
reason to be here where I am now as well.
