Revelation.
Worth. What am I worth? What am I capable of doing? What exactly makes me qualified to go on the world race? Why me?
These questions have all been cycling through my mind throughout the past couple weeks after being accepted into the world race.
“Andrea, you sin. You constantly sin. You are about to get a HUGE reality check into what this cruel world does and you’re going to do some “feel good” work and come back and be excited, but it’s all fake. You’ve sinned. You continue to sin. You’ll never be good enough. You won’t succeed. You’re not strong enough. You’re too different.”
That’s what the enemy tells me on an almost daily basis. At first, I just shook it off. At first, I would declare in Jesus’ name to go away. At first I trusted Jesus. I started to let my guard down though. I started believing the lies. And when I realized I was letting Satan lie to me, he continued to lie to me saying that I still was all those things simply because I believed the lies.
The Kingdom of God isn’t full of righteous people that have done so well that they’re worthy of the grace they receive. The Kingdom of God if full of broken people humbly proclaiming Jesus is Lord, loving their neighbors in a genuine manner, and accepting the free gift of grace through our almighty Father because they are not perfect.
Jesus is enough. Jesus makes me worthy. Jesus has made me capable. Jesus will qualify me. The Kingdom of God will only shine when we put our desires, thoughts, feelings, and priorities last and Jesus on top.
We are called to be the light of the world, to bring hope into this broken world, to love our neighbor as ourselves, but most importantly: to love the Lord, our God, with all our heart, soul, and mind. (Matt 5:14, Matt 22:37-39)
I am choosing to trust Jesus in every circumstance from here until the race, from the race until I come home, and from when I come home until forever.
I will sin, I will get frustrated, and I will be confused at times because I don’t understand such things. But here before you, I declare in the name of Jesus for peace, love, grace, and mercy on my and all of the racers.
I cannot imagine what God will do during this, but hey, what’s life without a little bit of mystery?
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