When I started reading racer blogs, I often wondered how things rise up. I would wonder: why is this issue coming up/out while on the mission field? What was the setting? Did they go into the race with that issue? Were they planning to confront it during their race?
The issues ranged from self-hatred, weight issues, trust in God, past hurts in many regards (sexual abuse, substance addictions, etc.), insecurities, and other strongholds that had kept a person "back" from whatever the next step was.
I didn't realize until I was actually here on my race that God has always wanted to heal my wounds, my past, and my heart; He just so happened to be patient enough with me until I was around the people He knew could help me through them.
The mission field here is definitely different than anything I could ever imagine. Being a first-time missionary, I honestly didn't know what I would face. I definitely didn't expect for God to rise up a bunch of gunk that has been lingering within me for quite some time while still moving towards glorifying His name.
Since being on the race I have been able to help with: breaking the language barrier by being a translator, building a playground for a daycare that never thought they would have anything but an area of dirt for the kids to play with, cooking some delicious stuff, carrying really heavy roofing equipment, building relationships with the local people, playing with the kids (they’re everywhere!!), and other things here and there.
Through all those things I helped with, God has been revealing the hurts, offenses, sins, and overall just junk that is/has been in my heart for far too long.
Just because I am doing something for God doesn’t mean He wants to take a break from healing me.
If you would like, please stay tuned for part two to come soon. <3
