Our ministry in Cambodia has not avoided the almost infallible tide of the past months that sweeps our team into sporadic and unexpected intervals of mnistry. From an orphanage for 4 days to partnering with CCC in doing direct evangelism equipped with the 4 spiritual laws and all, has made for shifting sands. Never thought I’d be using that track ever again. But never say never apparently. Currently, half-days of CCC in the mornings and joining up with the other teams in the after noons has become our last week of ministry(ies). Based on our expectations for this months — live in an apartment with just our team, partner with just one ministry for the entire month, have AC — ok, maybe with exception of the latter hope, they all were proved to be more from our plans than God’s.
This may sound strange. Wouldn’t God want to foster consistency in our lives?
Well, we talk about consistency as if it were some core ingredient to knowing God, or some personal quality/attribute of His that should be imparted. If consistency is relative to time and human interactions/manipulations within it and their results thereof, then I’d have to say it would not be some imparted quality/attribute necessary to be revealed of Him in our lives. Also, we know Him partly through trials of faith. And although He is unchanging, consistency in my life only fosters trust in predictable circumstances and ultimately faith in my own ability to recognize how I function in familiar circumstances.
Honestly, it’s been hard to let go of my expectations of ministry — both future and present — how I should feel toward them, how they should function, what they should be. He wants me to trust Him. I’m beginning to see how I might function outside of my expectations. But I think that means I have to learn how to ride the tide rather than fight it.
