Just a little spark……just a little child of God …Igniting a massive firework!
Just a simple, little orphan girl the Father uses daily to radiate his humility, Joy and intentionality for his people.
She is that unique painting in the thrift store that you cant leave without!
She is the one of a kind stone in the middle of the Pendant.
She is wearing pink when everyone els is wearing black.
Didder! Didder! I hear every morning … her little nub rubbing my cheek at 7 a.m. talking half English half telegu. Giggling as she jumps on the bed in full joy knowing she is about to get Cinnamon oatmeal with Sugar for breakfast.
Half awake, I trying not to act like Im still sleeping hoping I might get another hour of sleep in. I try not to laugh at her or encourage her body slamming me this early in the morning. But its almost imposable not to laugh because she was literally created to be a manifestation of the Lords Joy.
Feeling like I got about 5 hours of sleep, because she is the wildest sleeper I know…Lilly does her morning disco dance as she struts around my room laughing at herself. The only thing I know to do is join her as we laugh about nothing and egg each other on.
For this season the Lord has brought me too, I have slipped back into my childhood playful fun and love. At some point growing up in this world, I forgot how simple Love is. I realize more than ever now my role as a daughter of the Most High God. To love and be loved,…. to just be me.
Lilly is the most unique little girl I have ever met. Everything about her is captivating, and beautiful. For once not only have I caught a glimpse of the Fathers love that he feels for me, but I feel like Im looking in the mirror when I look at her.
Ive always been a little different,…ever since I was a little girl I ran around the house singing ,dancing, entertaining and just loving to make people laugh. I remember in High School One day I decided I was going to try and act “normal” HAHA whatever that is. But my goal was to be calm and “just be cool, and act like everyone els” It lasted for a couple days and I felt suffocated in a cage.It was the most unnatural torture I have ever felt. I thought, “if thats what it feels like to be normal then I don’t stand a chance.
I think one the most exciting things to seek out with the Lord is ….God who am I? Show me who I am. Show me the fabric of who you made me to be. What is my character? The way I laugh, the way I walk, the things I like to eat. These are all little things that are so intimate with the Lord. Because everything about you was designed. Everything about you was thought of, and spoken into being before the creation of the WORLD! WOW!
So what does it look like to be completely free?
What does it look like to be so confident as a son or daughter to the Most High God and just be you? To not fear man? To know that you are so LOVED nothing els matters. This is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. Lilly has shown me that I radiate Gods love most brilliantly when I just receive and accept who he made me to be!!!
I have learned so much more!!! But these are just some learning experiences, and thoughts for this past month! I never thought God could give me a mothers heart, a daughters understanding, and my childhood back in such a short amount of time!!
But now more than ever I am grateful and honored to be who my father made me to be. No more insecurity, no more shame, no more “I wish I was more normal”. As I grasp onto this more and more I am filled with laughter and Joy. My favorite is the “LOOK” from my Indian friends….. “what is Drey doing?” that makes me fall to my knees Im laughing so hard!
I love how God uses the simple to comfound the wise….He is so brilliant, He is so simple, and He is so intentional with each person he places before us!
My plan is to walk in the rest of this season with Joy and laughter with my partner in Crime:) My sweet baby lilly!
