Hello everyone! God is working like crazy here in Honduras. I am growing in christ in a million different directions and one of the most beautiful things I have encountered while here is a mothers heart. I have never been crazy about children but as I've been traveling God has really been rooting me deeper and deeper in his love , especially for his children! As you know here at Zion's gate there are many street boys that Tony has taken in and that also roam the property daily. One little boy that has wrecked my heart is Fernando.You would never gues six months ago this little boy smoking pot living on the streets. I don't feel like my words could ever describe how much I really love this little twelve year old boy. It is different from a sisterly love or a neighborly love, and even though this may sound crazy, I feel like I am Fernando's mother. I naturally check on him throughout the day to see what he is doing. He comes and finds me when he is tired to sit in my lap. He makes sure I get a hug and kiss every morning at breakfast. Whenever he gets a treat he makes sure to find me to give me a bite. Little things that make my day and grow me closer and closer to him. Fernando loves to make up songs with me on the big tree swing even though he knows little english but he is a very bright kid and picks up words fast.He has the brightest smile and loves to jump off giant curbs on his bike. On Sundays he often goes back to Los Pinos where he used to live to visit his mother that lives at the garbage dump. When he stays with her it is up to Fernando to dig through the dumpsters to find food until Tony comes to pick him up on Monday. The beautiful part is that he chooses to go see his mother still, even knowing that sometimes she won't be there and he has to stay overnight by himself.
Even though he has a loving family and food to fill his stomach, he still wants to spend time with his mother and search for her. What a gift the way God has rooted His children to their mothers heart even if they can't provide for their children or show them affection we often take for granted and the way we naturally miss our parents and look for approval in them even if we try to cut them out of our lives. We can't cut them out because it is so natural to love them despite any situation.
Honestly if God told me to stay and adopt Fernando, I would in a heart beat. I would give up everything, live here and give him the best life I could. But I know it is not God's plan to stop yet and there are many children out their waiting for me to hold them and love on them. But I know one day God will give me many children that I will get to keep forever, children that melt my heart the way Fernando does and so naturally feel like they were always mine. Children that God has already ordained to be mine and are just waiting for me! Waiting for me on the streets, waiting for me in a dumpster, waiting for me in an orphanage! It makes me so excited, SO EXCITED, and its a little weird for me because I never thought I would feel this way about children. I praise God that I have the most amazing life filled with adventure, unexpected things that come up everyday that blow my mind, how I have no idea in the end where my life is going next, and all the genuine love that I'm surrounded with daily that I wouldn't trade for the world! PRAISE GOD! PRAISE GOD! PRAISE GOD!!! Thank you God that we are able to provide for our children food, clothing, schooling, but most important love. That we know how to hug them, kiss them, speak life to them and encourage them because we were given that through our parents. That is such a gift from you and only you, and just so you know mom I would choose spending time with you over any juicy cheeseburger in the world 🙂 Thanks mom for teaching me how to love !
PS im sorry that I never have pictures on my blog it will not allow me to put them up!
