I want to be a daughter who is fearless to preach the gospel to anybody in any situation. I want to be a daughter who is fearless of persecution and rejection for the name of Jesus Christ. I want the love of god so imbedded in my heart that I can weep and feel genuine compassion for my enemies.
Why am I afraid sometimes? How can I be so filled and fearless, and the next day be so unsure………hesitant. One of the biggest things I have learned throughout this year is never to trust my flesh. To persevere balance day to day and allow god to root me in my faith.
The lord brought me to…..Luke: 24
Jesus Has Risen
On the first day of the week, very early in the morning, the women took the spices they had prepared and went to the tomb.They found the stone rolled away from the tomb, but when they entered, they did not find the body of the Lord Jesus.While they were wondering about this, suddenly two men in clothes that gleamed like lightning stood beside them. In their fright the women bowed down with their faces to the ground, but the men said to them, “Why do you look for the living among the dead? He is not here; he has risen! Remember how he told you, while he was still with you in Galilee: ‘The Son of Man must be delivered over to the hands of sinners, be crucified and on the third day be raised again.’ ”Then they remembered his words.
When they came back from the tomb, they told all these things to the Eleven and to all the others.It was Mary Magdalene, Joanna, Mary the mother of James, and the others with them who told this to the apostles. But they did not believe the women, because their words seemed to them like nonsense. Peter, however, got up and ran to the tomb. Bending over, he saw the strips of linen lying by themselves, and he went away, wondering to himself what had happened.
The apostles walked with Jesus, countless miracles, signs and wonders done before their eyes and their own hands. They ate with Jesus, they watched him turn five loaves of bread and two fish inton 5 thousands. They watched him raise the dead.
And as Mary ran to them telling them Jesus had rose, they didn't believe.
I just think….why were they not waiting at the tomb themselves on the third day expecting Jesus to be risen?
Often times Im like the apostles, last month I watched a 66 year old paralyzed women be completely healed. I see demons cast out of people regularly, and allot of the time so overcome by the holly spirit in worship to the point I cant stand up on my legs.
Hebrews 10:35
Therefore do not cast away your confidence, which has great reward. For you have need of endurance, so that after you have done the will of God, you may receive the promise.
I know that god is real, I know that their is a heaven and a hell. That their is one true lord Jesus Christ who came to earth and died for our sins. So why? Why am I still so unsure of myself sometimes? Why do I doubt the lords voice in so many situations, why do I cry out of fear and frustration?
Apart from god we are nothing, absolutely nothing. He doesn't need us, he wants us. We are not loved by our performance or the amount of good deeds we do a day. Good works was a gift given to us through his power and love flowing through us. So when I panic, my little human mind forgets that I'm not in control of the outcome.
That maybe if I do take control and do everything right ill be rewarded, or pleasing my father. HAHAh how earthly is that? Im done taking confidence in my flesh. Or when I choose not to receive gods love it is only my human pride rejecting who he is. We orchestrate so loving and perfect in faith receiving his love, his true nature and character.
Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all . So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal
2 Corinthians 4 :16-18
When I don't understand I will choose you
It is time for us to allow god to carry us, to take care of us and allow him to do all the work. We are to be a vessel, to stand firm in our faith, to be still and know that he is god. To understand that receiving his great love for us is where all the beautiful fruit will produce.
Hebrews 11:3
By faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of god, so that the things which are seen were not made of things which are visible.
I encourage you, wherever you are in your walk with the lord, we don't have to panic and hope we get it all right. We dont have to fear and beg god for help. We can come before his glorious thrown humbled and expect him that he will provide. That he is in control. Because beautiful Jesus did rise on the third day 🙂 And I have learned that Jesus loves faith, he loves confidence that we know that we know that we know know know know with all our hearts and all our strength that he is the almighty god, of glorious love and eternity waiting for his bride 🙂
P.S. internet is not good enough to upload pics so i will keep trying! I love you all!
