(this was actually written on Sunday)

Last night I was in a very blah mood, which I tried satisfying by going for a run and then listening to music and drawing which usually helps…this time, not so much.  Throughout the day, I kept feeling a strong urge to pick up the bible.  I put it off until right before I was going to sleep, mostly because I didn’t want to put myself in a position where I would open it and nothing would jump out at me with clarifying or comforting words.

So, I sat in bed and before opening it up, I prayed that God would provide words of encouragement and confirmation for what I am doing.

I closed my eyes and picked a “random” page smack dab in the middle of the bible which led me to this verse:

 24Then Jesus said to his disciples, “If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. 25For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it.

Matthew 16:24-25 
 
..and then it went into a whole section about Christ’s followers going into cities that He was soon to enter to get the people prepared for His arrival.  It discussed how it might be scary, and even dangerous at times, but they need not fear because He would ALWAYS be with them.

Well, I don’t think it gets much clearer than that!  Please keep in mind that there was no crease in this page at all…this was an amazing moment, and I wish that I could explain it in a way that truly conveys how perfect it was that I came to this page in the bible that “happened” to have this verse on it which has come up numerous times since I’ve been thinking about going on the World Race and even more after committing to it.  I believe that I, as well as my team, will return from the World Race with a VERY different outlook on life.  We will be broken down and built back up, challenged more than ever before, we will be away from EVERYTHING that we know and love.  The few months that I’ve been preparing for this has already changed so much within me as well as my outlook on life, so I can’t even imagine what the entire 11 months to 11 countries will do!  Jesus never said it would be easy to follow Him.  None of the disciples were smooth sailing their way through life.  Everyone had difficulties and challenges.  Those are the very things that shape who we are now and who we are to become.  We have obstacles for a reason.  We will grow from them and become who we are meant to be. 

So for now, I’ll just keep on keepin’ on 🙂 Thank the Lord for his guidance and comfort when we need it the most.  He wants us to come to Him when we are feeling lost, lonely, confused, and uncertain.  He doesn’t expect us to go through these times alone; He wants to walk along side of us and guide our way. Sometimes all we need to do is stop and listen when He’s trying to get through to us 🙂