There is really only one desire I have right now, amidst the choices and forks in the road that I know lie ahead. There's one overall desire that trumps the other stuff that my heart ponders from time to time. With this season of my life coming to a close, I am faced with the 'what's next' question at almost every turn. It's such a topic of conversation and sometimes the future can be a foreboding, ominous thought. The conclusion I have come to is something like this. You know Pinky and the Brain? They do the exact same thing, every night, "Try to take over the world!!" And that's my answer to the question,
"What are you going to do when you get home, Andrea?"
"Same thing I do every day, Pinky. Try to take over the world with the kingdom!"
My heart's cry, my heart's desire is to know the heart of the Father in greater and deeper ways every day, and to advance His kingdom in whatever I am doing at any given point in time. I am only given one moment at a time, the same moment that every single person on the planet lives in. We're all in this moment together. Crazy, right? So what reality am I living in, in this moment? What reality am I choosing to believe, now, in this moment? I could fill these glimpses of time with so much crap. I could take this moment to think about all of my tomorrows but where would that get me? I'm only here, right now. My tomorrows have not yet been given to me.
So. My moments are few. They are fleeting. They escape me, sometimes before I even know I had them. I want to so live in them. I want to be in the here and now, all of my todays, however many I am given.
In this moment, all of heaven is rejoicing.
In this moment, all of heaven is for me, whatever my circumstance.
In this moment, God loves me.
In this moment, God's favor is on my life.
In this moment, I am alive!
In this moment, I am a daughter of the Living God.
In this moment, I am seated in heavenly places with Christ, at the right hand of the Father.
In this moment, the power and presence of God resides in me.
In this moment, Jesus is the victor!
In this moment, God sees me.
There could be a storm blowing around me. There could be a sickness threatening to disable me. There could be countless things going on in the natural.
But, what reality am I allowing to dictate my moments?
Because praise in the kingdom is ceaseless.
Life in the kingdom is never-ending.
There is wholeness in the kingdom. Perfect wholeness.
Peace rules in heaven.
Joy is abounding in the kingdom.
God is on the throne.
These are eternal realities that have happened, will happen, and are happening.
Then.
Now.
Later.
Forever.
My heart's desire is to be such a channel, a conduit of these realities that they animate the stuff around me.
That these realities will quicken the good stuff in and around me and obliterate the works of the enemy.
So.
That one desire of mine: to know the heart of the Father, to seek the kingdom first and His righteousness. Everything else will be added unto me.
All the details, the plans, the job, etc. will be added as I continue to seek His face and draw near.
He'll lead me.
He'll show me.
I praise Him for now.
I praise Him for this day.
I thank God for my breath, my heartbeat.
He has my days.
He has my future.
And I am so thankful that He does.
