Hello all!
I hope this Friday finds you well. I am currently sitting on the couch w/coffee & journal, watching snowflakes fall. The Christmas tree is lit and there’s a fake fire crackling on the tv.
^hello America.
I’m back in the States and it’s been a lot to take in and adjust to.
It hasn’t been smooth, it hasn’t been easy; to up and leave Morocco via plane and all of a sudden be dropped in the States is abrupt (to put it in one word). If you’ve been to third & second world countries, you can relate.
I have been blessed to have time to rest, adjust (whatever that means), and figure out how to function here.
I am thankful to have quiet time & space to just be.
I realize, now, that my previous blog, while it may hold great ideas & advice, I thought I needed all those things & wanted them. Turns out I was wrong. I literally could not have prepared for what re-entry would be.
So, I am letting you know these things: I am here, I’m alive, I’m in a familiar place but I feel like a foreigner.
Papa told me He isn’t in a rush; I don’t have to rush through this process/change/transition whatever you want to call it.
I’ve been a lot slower to contact friends & family since being back. Quite the opposite of what I expected I’d do.
I’m learning how to take this one day at a time.
I’m learning it’s okay not to rush. It’s okay to take time. It’s okay for me to just be.
So, I’m here.
I don’t know how to unpack all this year has held. I don’t know how to share the experiences & people that have been most impactful.
I don’t even know how to move forward right now.
I don’t know what’s next.
But I’m here.
I’m here.
And it’s okay that I don’t know.
It’s okay that I am how I am.
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Big love.
Thank you.
More to come as I unpack & discover this messy, strange, uncharted part of adventure.
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