Month 9.
Wait what?!
How is it already September?!
I remember it being May; I blinked and now I’m here.
Wasn’t I just riding bikes through Mae Sot, Thailand?
I feel like I was just traveling by bus & minibus way too many miles through China smelling way more cigarette smoke than I would like to smell.
It feels like we just got to Bishkek and were teaching English classes.
I thought I was just in Indonesia taking many more selfies than I would like. (Pretty sure I have satisfied the quota of selfies for 3 peoples lifetimes that month)
Yet here I sit, baffled that I just spent 8 months in the continent of Asia.
I sit here wondering how time flies and moves slowly.
I sit here not knowing how to deal with the reality that 2.5 months from now I will be in the States.
I am presented with questions…
How do I remain present?
How do I prepare for life back in the States?
How do I finish well?
What does Papa still want to do?
What is he teaching me now?
I don’t want to waste my time.
I don’t want to stress.
I don’t want to worry.
I don’t want to hold back.
I don’t want to miss what Papa has for me here.
I don’t want to miss who he wants me to encourage.
I don’t want to waste my time.
Yet I’m sitting here in our unscheduled time worrying about the future. Wondering where I’ll be, where I’ll be working (I need a job man cuz money rules the world we live in), how I’ll integrate back into life.
Where are you in life?
Take a moment and ask yourself these questions.
It’s natural for these questions to come up when nearing the end of a season. But who’s to say I’m nearing the end? I could be at the beginning of a season.
Maybe you’re at the beginning of a new season; or in the midst of one.
I am trying to ask and answer these questions….but more often than not I’ve been worrying and fretting.
What do I want?
What kind of person do I want to be?
How will I get there?
What am I learning about myself?
What am I learning about others?
Where do I want to see change?
How can I contribute to the change?
Ask questions. It’s okay if you are stuck in the answer!
I don’t know- but I know that questions are good. They are a good step forward.
They are a step toward self awareness.
The answers are not coming easily for me, I hope that’s an encouragement of you are feeling the same.
