The truth is, I am pursued. And He showed me that today.
I have never really had a romantic partner pursue me well. Some have tried, but it was either covered in lust or I was broken and not ready to receive. It was always with good intensions but, as I now know, would never have worked because it was not the time. Since day one of The Race I have been praying for healing of my heart from my past, and to fall in love with Jesus. Well, both have been happening, and I just realized it this afternoon.
I was having some relaxing time with The Lord, and praying for many things: my family and friends back home, my teammates, for my own journey, and my future spouse. As I was praying He reminded me of the two movies I happened to watch this week: You’ve Got Mail and 50 First Dates. Both movies emotionally moved me a lot and for the same reason. The women were pursued so well.
They were swept off their feet. The men were there through the tough times. They grew trust and care for each other before anything ever became physical. They respected each other. They love each other for who they are as a whole; not just the “good” stuff. The men understood that is was an honor to hold each of their woman’s heart in their hands, and the responsibility that came with that. This idea swept me away in hope and excitement.
So as I was praying, asking for a husband who would pursue me and love me like the men in the movies, He spoke so clearly…
“Andrea, I have the perfect man for your future, but right now, it is I whom is pursuing you. It is My turn to win your heart. It is me who is setting up these fun adventures you are going on, who is granting the wants of your heart, who is showering you with words of affirmation, who is showing you your true beauty, who is showing you how much I love you, and how much I love making you happy. I will continue to pursue you with an unstoppable love. I will continue to give you not only the things you need, but also the things you simply want. It is my turn to court you. I am the one who will always be your Provider. I am the one who supplies your joy. I am the one who fills you with strength. And I love you so much.”
It was then I felt an overwhelming love throughout my entire being. I was so filled that I couldn’t hold back tears of joy as I listened to His words. He loves me. He loves me so well that I couldn’t even recognize all the things He has done for me until I sat in reflection. He has always been their, loving me. And now I am loving Him back.
At the beginning of this year I saw myself as a servant in His huge castle. All I was worthy of doing was cleaning up the ground He walked on. I saw myself as dirty, shameful, and ruined. But now I see it clearly. I am the daughter of the King; a princess of His Kingdom. I am not cleaning up the scraps after dinner, but instead sitting at the table with Him embracing His love. He has pursued me for years, and today I turned to Him and fully accepted His love. I chose into this eternal relationship. I am all in! He has every part of my life and being, everyday.
I am loved.
I am redeemed.
I am made-new.
I am pursued.
I am a daughter of the King.
I am all His.
“Rooftops” and “Unstoppable Love” by Jesus Culture
-These two songs came on my shuffle will I was having time with God. Check them out if you don’t know them!
