Since I joined this race in December of 2012, my life has been summed up in one word- Chaos.
I've moved 3 times in the past year.
I've given up tons of furniture and things that I liked.
I've left friendships that meant the world to me, and in the end, it was all for this.
but,
"the hardest things we pursue, are always worth it"
Just 4 months until I launch, and i still feel so behind.
I sent in a check for 500 dollars from the money I saved up
and irresponsibly spent the money before the check with through.
I'm now 3,200 dollars. and 2 weeks from meeting my 3,500 deadline.
I'm just Irresponsible.
But,
"the things that are hardest to pursue, are always worth it."
And I learned from my stupid mistake.
Irresponsible. unworthy. "unspiritual". Self-centered. Emotional. "your short responses are indicators to me that you perhaps are not what/who I expected before I contacted you." ouch.
Voices or words I've heard over and over. The battle of spiritual warfare has gotten stronger.
but,
"the things that are hardest to pursue, are always worth it."
And He tells me I'm worthy. He teaches me to be people-centered and I WILL learn this more on the race, if I can go. The emotional can be the strongest because it brings forth vulnerability- vulnerability isn't something many can face. I will always fail friends, acquaintances, family, loved ones, and people I don't know.. always. Which is why I can't live to please man. I have to live to please my Lord, because He knows I'll fail, and He promises to be my strength.
And lastly, the moment I said yes to this, the warfare has only strengthened, the question I have to ask myself is: how am i going to respond? giving up or rebuking fear?
but,
"the things that are hardest to pursue, are always worth it."
"My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." psalm 73:23.
I'm losing my mind over this.
In fact, I'm losing everything for this.
The things that I want now.
The people that I love.
I'm sacrificing it all, for this.
but,
"the things that are hardest to pursue, are always worth it."
I've fought the enemy alone. I've battled daily if the world race Is something I should continue to do.
but,
"the things that are hardest to pursue, are always worth it."
The moment that we are kingdom-minded, the enemy cringes, and he will do everything in his power to make us weak. But today, I will cling to this verse, "in our weakness, He is made strong."
I'm broke,
and haven't been able to afford any more equipment.
but,
"the things that are hardest to pursue, are always worth it."
He will provide the equipment I need. I have to believe that He will.
While we're on the subject… Have I mentioned lately…?
I need you.
I need your encouragement, I need your support, I need your prayer, I need your words of affirmation, I need your love, I need your creative ideas.
JOIN ME in this, please.
Come-on church, I need YOU.
So, here's my stretch of invite to you, friend.
Do you have fundraising ideas? Let me hear them. PLEASE…
E-mail me: [email protected]
Are you a prayer warrior? Will you be a part of my prayer team via e-mail? —^ (email me and tell me to add you!)
Will you be the 200 dollars that I need in order to get to training week?
Will you donate to me monthly?
I need 7,500 by December 27th. I need you. And I promise, you will be a part of this journey, I will include YOU specifically.
Go here: online donation
OR
Donate by check:
Make Checks Payable to Adventures in Missions and mail to:
P.O Box 534470
Atlanta, GA 30353-4470
* MAKE SURE to put my FULL NAME (Andie Lance) in the memo line of the check.
(it takes 2 weeks to process)
Will you help donate by buying a piece or piece(s) of equipment for me?
go here,
click on gift registry,
name: andrea lance
Registry number: GR13858520
Event date: 1/1/14
There are so many ways you can be a part of this, and i desire so badly for you to be. So will you?
Ya'll, this is the hardest thing I've ever pursued, and I'm pursuing hard.
The moment I said yes to this race,
I've chosen this race over relationships, comfort, and everything in between.
I've never wanted something so badly in my life,
and I believe He wants this for me just as bad, if not more.
and you know what?
as hard as this process is, I know it will be worth it in the end.
Believe that truth with me…
walk along side me, be a part of this journey with me, I need you, daily.
I choose to walk in expectancy today, and I EXPECT that He will see me through this trip with YOUR help. I know it will happen.
Thank you, in advance.
