Launch seems to be nothing like I imagined it would be.
and i'm okay with that.
it kind of feels like a glimpse of what I'll be experiencing on the race, this whole "I'm not sure what's going on or what to expect but i'll go with the flow" kinda mentality.
not saying that the race will be filled with worship sessions, safety training classes, and downtime.
because the race won't be.
But, everyday I'll constantly be wondering what she has to offer and constantly have to "go with the flow" when the Holy Spirit says "do this" and it would be completely out of the way or not on the schedule.
Today, we met with our squad leaders and mentor so they can get to know us as a team.
They asked the question "what are you fearful of in going into the race"
I looked around at my team as they pondered and began wondering for myself.
I realized I didn't know. Because I don't.
I'm going into this race blindly.
Going into what I believe is an unknown strange land excites me.
The unknown has gone from being terrifying to exciting within the years.
I would be lying if I said I was afraid I wouldn't meet the deadlines because I look back at when I was in a 2,500 dollar need and watched how the Lord worked through His people in one day and became funded enough to meet the 7,500 deadline, and the thing is…He didn't just meet the deadline, he exceeded it to 8,200.
Those of you not going on the race because you're afraid of the funds, I rebuke that in Jesus' name right now. He has power over that money because its HIS money to begin with and He will send you if He's given you a heart and passion to go. just sayin.
I would be lying if I said I was afraid I'm going to miss out on things here, because within the past week the Lord has given me such a comfort over leaving- the things here don't compare to my desire to still go.
sure I'll wish I was at that friends graduation.
That friends wedding.
Austin Christian fellowships student ministry church retreats/summer camps.
Family camping trips.
Birthdays.
I could go on…
But the Lord grabbed a hold on to me and boldly said:
"I have something far greater in store for you, and it consists of Me.
I have an adventure I want you to go on, and it will be all about Me and my Kingdom being released through you."
Why would I want anything else?
I have no reason to be afraid, mainly because He says "There is no fear in love; instead, perfect love drives out fear, because fear involves punishment. So the one who fears has not reached perfection in love."
Not saying I have reached perfection in love, but I have a God that has. I have a God that's name is Love and when I rest in the comforting truth of who He is, I have no reason to be fearful, because "love drives out fear." It all makes sense.
So friends, I'm finally here after 2 long years. In just one day I'll be in Antigua, Guatemala. The traveling around the world for the next 10 months after that.
The Lord has perfect timing. He's sending me with the perfect team, the perfect squad, into the perfect countries.
He has me in His best interest.
He always has, it just sometimes takes a little longer to see that..
and guess what,
He has YOU in His best interest…
Do you believe that?
Because, why would a Father,
a Father that is named Love and shows compassion and endearment to His people,
not have His best interest in you?
