Sitting on the Thailand beach, Pattaya, just gazing.
not questioning.
just staring at His creation.
The ocean.
It's so vast, so big,
"Elijah, what are you staring at?"
I hear my teammate ask the refugee boy
(He and His family fled from Pakistan, came here,
and are now working alongside the ministry we will be with this month).
"i'm just looking at the sky, it's bigger than me." He replied.
Just gazing.
Not questioning.
Just staring at His creation.
I smile as I skim across the beach sand, my feet digging deep into the ground.
I close my eyes and flash back to Month 3, when we were in Ometepe, Nicaragua.
Ometepe was an Island just off the shore of Rivas on Lake Managua.
We were meeting with a ministry there and decided to take a few days of rest from the 2 weeks of traveling and ministry we were doing.
On our last night in Ometepe,
my team and I sat on the beach worshipping.
Singing songs.
Admiring our God.
Speaking life over our month.
Speaking in prophecy over the things the Lord was telling us.
It was a beautiful time.
such a breath of fresh air.
I remember I began covering my feet with piles of all the little tiny grains of sand,
amazed by how all the little grains make up such a long, deep beach.
Then the Lord spoke to me,
"I know the number grains of sand that you see on this beach and all over the world."
"wow, God, thats amazing!" I said, truly astonished.
"now, you think that's amazing,
just imagine then,
how much I know and love you.
I know everything there is to know about you,
my dear daughter,
and I adore it all."
I was stunned.
Tears began to flood my eyes.
Adoration.
It was a feeling i've lacked for years, maybe ever?
being truly adored, just for being me.
Not being adored for the change i would make for someone.
The feeling of being cute.
The feeling of being admired.
My beauty- Inward and outward.
We all love to be adored, cute, and admired.
The love He has for me is incomprehensible.
I mean goodness… I'm in Thailand…
The country I've been waiting to go to for 2 years.
The country the Lord placed on my heart 2 years ago,
not exactly sure of how He was going to make that desire a reality.
I can't help but believe just how crazy He is about me.
He wants so many good things for me.
He wants to fulfill my deepest longings.
He shows me so much favor…
It's no coincidence.
Coincidence doesn't exist with God.
He's a God with purpose in everything He does.
This country.
This ministry.
The fact that i'm sleeping right above this ministries coffee shop.
The fact that this ministry HAS a coffee shop.
The vision that this ministry has to bring women out of the sex slavery industry, giving them counseling, teaching them different skills and techniques to find jobs, sharing the love of Jesus with them.
This is my dream job.
It's wrapped perfectly with a bow placed on my lap.
I'm floored.
Guess what,
He knows everything about you.
He knows what you've done.
He knows what you will do.
He knows what you want to do.
Don't be intimidated… this is such a good thing.
How sweet it is to be known in full and loved.
He's crazy about you despite your human tendencies.
He still pursues you because He wants you with him for eternity.
He wants forever with you.
And all it takes is a yes to Him and He invites us into adventure with him until He calls us home.
I'm loving my life so far.
and its only just begun…
I'm finding so much freedom in just being me
and that being enough.
Not living in the bondage to people please.
Letting go of past bondage to people, loved ones.
Finding joy in me.
Finding joy in the things i really like.
It's such a release.
Praying blessing over you.
Praying that you believe these things for yourself as I am for me.
The favor He has for me,
You better believe He has the same favor for you.
The love He has for me,
You better believe He has that same love for you.
You are one of a kind.
Created with purpose.
Unique.
Favored.
Loved.
You are known completely.
And
You are enough.
Amen.
I would like to remind you all that by my next deadline I will need to be fully funded at the end of July. As of today, I have 12,368.98, PRAISE GOD! In order to stay on the field, I still need to raise 3,885.02.
Would you please consider making a faithful, monthly donation of $50, and/or consider a one-time donation to my race. Join me as my support team. This is our journey, Church Family.
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