It’s been an interesting season for me regarding this topic. My roommate, Caroline, walked in and saw me in tears. And I didn’t really realize until I was explaining to her why in the world I was crying, that this topic has been a heavy one on my heart recently. 
The topic is babies–not for me; but more of the lack of them, the want for them, the hurt of losing them, and the abundance who are alone. Stories of mothers that lose their babies, friends who can’t get pregnant, who miscarry, who are adopting and facing battles in the process, and those kids that grow up seemingly alone and without a chance.
It seems so prevalent right now, the FIGHT for children, for birth, for pregnancy. Why? Is it always that way? I guess I am just seeing it and hearing it more and more because my friends are in this season right now.
My heart just seems to be lurching right now. I’ve been learning and walking into more and more of my intercessory gifting these past few months, and I am starting to see that my heart is aching and interceding for this in this season.
There’s not really much of a point to this blog I guess. I just got hit this morning, and it was because of yet, one more story that my heart hurt for. And I don’t understand why it happens–there are so many whys in my heart right now. But God is still good. As you can read here.
This story is from one of the January 2010 Squad Leaders, Krissy Whaley. She is one of the phenomenal leaders that I get to talk to on a regular basis in my position in Field Support.
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Night Vision from God
Saturday April 24th– Bukit Mertajam – Malaysia
I wake up sweating, frantic, and in tears……I try to forget
what I just saw, but I am too paralyzed to move. Was this vision real, or was I sleeping? I immediately start to pray…as fear is
something that I was not willing to submit to. I start to praise God for all He has done in my life and
declare that He is my King. I break down further as I continue to pray.
I cry out,
“God, where are you in
this darkness? This vision is of such death & evil, did you take any part
in this? What are you saying!?”
No response.
So I continue to praise the Lord through my confusion and
anxiety.
My Night Vision was
this:
I was meeting an old
friend at a cafe to catch up.
I ordered a strawberry smoothie and when my order was ready, the girl
behind the counter handed me a child. I looked at my friend confused and asked
why I was given a baby? I then realized that this baby was not breathing and had no pulse- she was
dead. Her skin was cold and grey. I started to panic and cry-
frantically looking around for anyone to help me….
heart;
downstairs seeking prayer from anyone who is willing. As my team begins to
pray, our local contact Janet begins to speak…
my time in Thailand next month. She spoke of the children in the human
trafficking slave trade and that God is preparing me for an experience I will
encounter in Thailand. She assured me not to fear, as God has told her we will
do mighty things through our faith in God.
peace come over me. I didn’t know how I could suddenly feel such a
sense of peace in this time, but God told me that everything was going
to be okay and assured me that He had a purpose for my vision that He
wasn’t going to reveal just yet. I didn’t know if this vision was for
a baby in Thailand or somewhere else, but I stayed faithful in my
continuous prayers and praise to the Lord for the next 5 days.
It is now April 29th. What I experienced next is heartbreaking and
shocking… 20 minutes before I leave for Thailand today, I get a
message from a good friend back home. We converse for a while and then
she proceeds to share the heartbreaking news of a dear friend of
ours……
figure out that Friday night in the United States is Saturday in
Malaysia….. God gave me this vision at exactly the same time my
friend was losing her daughter! The pain I felt for her was
unbearable. I felt a small portion of the pain she must have been
feeling that night(we were shedding tears together without knowing it)
and this vision was the very reason that a group of people (who are
complete strangers to Jessica) came together to pray and intercede on
her behalf. We prayed specifically against the spirit of fear, and
asked for peace. I asked God to bring love, understanding, comfort and
grace to the mother of this child. Little did I know that the mother
would be someone I knew.
needs of His people – He hears the cries of our hearts. “Jessica”-
would you rest in the peace that God spoke over you and your family to
all of us in Malaysia. The Lord doesn’t forsake His children; and He
hasn’t forgot about you. He continues to walk by your side. He spoke
hope and life over you.
share with her how God was using people across the world to pray for
her & her family. Would you all please join me in praying for
Jessica, her family, & her baby who now is in the hands of the
Lord.
God, I pray that you bless this family.
