Peace-out
No I’m not afraid.
No I am not anxious.
No I am not nervous.
I have peace.
It’s almost here, the day where I wrap my arms around my family. The day I can FINALLY eat In-n-Out (something I’ve craved the entire race). The day I can say the Lord asked 9 months of me and I fully committed and completed His request.
You see, as I reached the three week mark, a couple weeks ago, I started to get negative thoughts about home.
“No one will be excited when you get home.”
“You don’t even have a car”
“You’re going home to bills right when you get back”
“You’re going to argue with your family the whole time back”
“America is so overwhelming”
“Is America even your mission field?”
“You’re not going to be able to impact lives if you’re working a day job”
“Did you really change on this trip?”
“Everyone is going to be annoyed because you’re only going to talk about the race”
“You’re never going to see the people you’ve lived with for months ever again”
All of these thoughts are clearly not from the Lord. I cannot believe the audacity of the enemy to think that these thoughts would effect me. Does the enemy not know I have the Holy Spirit living inside me? Does he not know I have a loving and gracious God who lets me grieve because everything I just experienced is worth grieving over? Because it really doesn’t seem like it.
I have abided in the Lord so he will give me peace.
“You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you.”
Isaiah 26:3
I have told the Lord my worries and instead thanked Him for all of these experiences. He has guarded my hearted from all anxiety.
“do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
Philippians 4:6-7
I know my identity is in Christ so I have truly been blessed by Him.
“May the Lord give strength to his people! May the Lord bless his people with peace!”
Psalms 29:11
With the peace I have been given others can see that this is something Jesus offers to everyone!
“Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.”
John 14:27
I want to live as living proof that the Holy Spirit works in my life
“But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,”
Galatians 5:22
So as you can see I don’t have any problem declaring this peace over myself. The Lord is good in His promises to me and I know I am provided for now, when I go home, and the future to come. The race is amazing and I am sad for it to end, however I cannot wait to share all of the experiences I have had with my community back home!
Thank you all for reading my blogs and supporting my trip! By you coming along side my journey, it has helped me pushed through! There will be a couple more blogs to come as I end the race!
Mom, dad, and Jaquie I can’t wait to see you guys soon! I’m going to hug you and cry for so long! Love you guys
