God is so good y’all. My day to day life in this whole first month has been just amazing. Sure, I still have struggles and the attacks of the enemy are real. Conflicts arise, people try to tear me down and discourage me and sometimes, sadly it can be your own friends or family that attack you. However, through it all, you just have to keep loving them and keep your eyes on the Lord. Even if it means loving them from afar. I don’t let them steal my joy, because my joy doesn’t come from them. In my quite time with the Lord, when I am able to just sit still and dwell in His presence, I am reminded that even when things are not perfect, even when I fall short and even when the enemy thinks he has defeated me, I am VICTORIOUS in the Lord.
I had someone tell me how I was fake and that they didn’t need my prayers because I am not a righteous person. In my flesh, I was unbothered by it, because I have that kind of attitude that doesn’t care what others opinions are about me. That is not any of my business and I am not here for “likes”. I know I am not everyone’s cup of tea. That is just the way it is. If everyone liked and loved Jesus, we wouldn’t have a Savior, right? He just continued to love people where they were. However, in my heart, I was hurt to be honest, because I know I am flawed. I know I am not a “perfect” Christian. I know the areas in which I struggle. I know the lies of the enemy can be a constant whisper in my ear, but to hear those same things come out of someone else’s mouth that you love, that is hurtful. They reminded me of past and present struggles, they reminded me about my divorce and they tried to make me feel as though I was inadequate to do whatever the Lord has called me to do.
However, God held me. He didn’t remind me of my shortcomings. He forgave me. He still forgives me and He will always forgive me. He knows where my heart is and why I am on this journey He currently has me on. It is not to gain likes. It is not for others to think of me as a righteous person. It is not for me to think of myself as “holier than thou”. It is simply to be the hands and feet of Jesus. It is to tell others that even in our mess, there is a God that still loves us. It is to let others know that regardless of our circumstance, there is victory in the Lord. It is to be more like Jesus, every day, filling my life with more of Him and less of me.
Proverbs 29:25 It is dangerous to be concerned with what others think of you, but if you trust the Lord, you are safe.
